ravgonfly

It's funny...every time I talk about one of my exes I always dream of my first one...it doesn't make much sense to me seeing as how he is by far the biggest bastard out of all of them, but I think it is more what he represents in my mind then him as an actually person. He's the first person I let into my head and heart. I trusted him completely and he pretty much just shot down all the trust and trampled it on his way to the door. The good thing being that I learned from the whole experience and am glad that it did happen to me cause I have grown from it and become more understanding of myself because of it. But it still shakes me up every time I go into a dream and he shows up. Cause it's always me going to him now to talk or hang out while he is living his life with his wife and he always has a kid in the dreams...lord only knows if he does in real life. He unfortunately for me is an important part of my life because of all I learned from that relationship and because of that I have this overwhelming desire to go and talk to him now. To see how he turned out and to show him how much stronger I have become since he knew me. I know I will never get that chance which really is a good thing cause while I want it I don't think it would go nearly as nicely as it does in my dreams. *shrugs*

1) Do you still talk to your exes?
A: There are two I talk to, but not very often. I apparently and too threatening to one of the present girlfriends and so therefore he doesn't talk to me. so I guess I actually only talk to one of them on a semiregular basis.
2) Do you work today?
A: Of course I do...it's a day that ends in y. I always work on those days.
3) Do you know ASL?
A: it was my foreign language in college...I only remember bits and pieces that I use in everyday life...