ravgonfly

I really don't know which is worse...not hearing from a friend in a really long time or hearing from them only to find out their life has gone to hell in a handbasket and they had fallen off the earth which is why they didn't contact you. With the first I worry cause I don't know where they are (yeah I am like a mom who worries over her chicks when it comes to my close friends), and with the latter I feel horrible cause I didn't know any of it was going on and I wish there was some way I could help. So now I am stuck in the realm of bad/depressed mood cause I feel like I failed at being a good friend. And on top of all that...I leave early Thursday morning to spend my entire summer in the West. I haven't finished packing, hell I haven't even started packing for this move I have been trying to pack up my room so that my parents can use it as a guest room. I have a shit load of stuff that needs to get done and I just don't want to do any of it. All of my family members are pissing me off and I just want to scream at the top of my lungs and run away from everyone. Today is one of the few days when I wished that I drank. *sigh* that felt good to get off my chest...hopefully having gotten those thoughts out of my headspace I will have a better day. Much love to you all. Fare thee well.