im such a looser, i didnt go to work today AGAIN, i slept untill almost four o'clock.. 
i feel like im not getting much acomplished lately..oh well 
went over to my friends house tonight, and one of our friends came over and we hung out all night, it was nice, i took about five shots of vodka as well as other *cough* things... 
i smoked...
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i feel like im not getting much acomplished lately..oh well went over to my friends house tonight, and one of our friends came over and we hung out all night, it was nice, i took about five shots of vodka as well as other *cough* things... i smoked... Read More
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so i went to the doctor for my anxiety and he put me on Effexor XR and Ativan and it seems to be working so far...i dont like being on anything, but if it will stop this fucking shit i will be greatful 
its been pretty nice out for the past few days, a little too humid for me, the ac queen, but still nice....
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sliverz:
It's more up to date; the other one was taken about 4 weeks ago, and this was taken a couple days ago.
Wow. I just read your journal. Damn, sounds like you're having all the fun I never was able to score. Fucking piece of shit small towns. Anywho... as for being on medication; hey, at least you'll probably feel better more of the time. Anxiety sucks; not like I gotta tell you that, since you already know. heh. Yea, at least it'll help
Wow. I just read your journal. Damn, sounds like you're having all the fun I never was able to score. Fucking piece of shit small towns. Anywho... as for being on medication; hey, at least you'll probably feel better more of the time. Anxiety sucks; not like I gotta tell you that, since you already know. heh. Yea, at least it'll help
iyce:
yay to spreading the love raven!!! 
i'm fuckin baked right now...how about yourself?
i'm fuckin baked right now...how about yourself? 
iyce:
wow..i like hail..but i don't like the damage it can bring
ive had the worst fucking anxiety for the past week and a 1/2 
its fucking killing me...im gonna have to suck it up and actually go to the doctor...which has been a hassle in itself. finding someone in this little town. 
i just feel crazy.... by best friend had surgery today, and she is fine, but i was so worried about her.
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its fucking killing me...im gonna have to suck it up and actually go to the doctor...which has been a hassle in itself. finding someone in this little town. i just feel crazy.... by best friend had surgery today, and she is fine, but i was so worried about her.
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iyce:
hey there
sorry to hear about your anxiety...hope all will be well with you...making out on the floor is sexy....i haven't did that in a while..lol
take care
sorry to hear about your anxiety...hope all will be well with you...making out on the floor is sexy....i haven't did that in a while..lol
take care
just when you thought life sucked and you were a looser you finally get the courage to talk to the cute boi next door...and find out....he's so much like me.... we totally hit it off...i talked to him for 2 hours online, and i am suppost to cook him dinner next week when he gets back from going home on break... im so excited, and...
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we totally hit it off...i talked to him for 2 hours online, and i am suppost to cook him dinner next week when he gets back from going home on break... im so excited, and... Read More
"...im not sorry, its human nature, its human nature, and im not sorry, im not your bitch dont hang your shit on me, its human nature...would it feel better if i was a man?...why dont you just deal with it? would you like me better if i was?...im just like you...why should i be..." - madonna
hola suicidegirl land...today was a good day
i thought...
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hola suicidegirl land...today was a good day
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punkinhead:
Good for you dude! I hope it works out.
take it light,
ph
take it light,
ph
punkinhead:
Im a double posting motherfucker motherfucker!!
ph
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ph
[Edited on Apr 24, 2004 3:05PM]
well work today was super easy, thank the powers that be! 
its just been a little hellish lately, and today was a fuckin breeze...first off, its been fucking nasty out, not that i really mind the rain, but its been raining nonstop for days and its just icky...we only had like 3 customers and i sat around all day working on putting things on ebay...
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its just been a little hellish lately, and today was a fuckin breeze...first off, its been fucking nasty out, not that i really mind the rain, but its been raining nonstop for days and its just icky...we only had like 3 customers and i sat around all day working on putting things on ebay... Read More
desilou:
i just showed apartments today at work and delievered some paint to this other apartment. got my bathroom worked on and that was it.
punkinhead:
everybody is doing the new butchies ablum - I may just have to jump on the bandwagon.
Sorry about your friend. Its a wierd time we live in - they can cure all kinds of stuff. She might be back in the swing in no time, you just never know.
best energy,
ph
Sorry about your friend. Its a wierd time we live in - they can cure all kinds of stuff. She might be back in the swing in no time, you just never know.
best energy,
ph
the past two days of work have been hell, non-stop prep work out the ass... yeasterday i made 150 fucking deviled eggs! 
i dont ever want to see an egg again... seems that its just catering job after catering job and its burnin me out...
other than that life has been the same as always, sucked into finishing the angel episodes that i havent yet...
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i dont ever want to see an egg again... seems that its just catering job after catering job and its burnin me out...
other than that life has been the same as always, sucked into finishing the angel episodes that i havent yet...
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desilou:
that is alot of eggs. remember d and i's (i think it might of been 2 or 3 year) anniversary party. and ashpee mad all those eggs. i was sick for awhile. i watched charmed tonight of thought of you. plus it is going to get warm soon and who is going to fill the role of my naked boy.
desilou:
you missed a really good the l word last night. you definatly have to see it.
oooooooh ive been soo fucking bored lately, nothing to do...well, i guess there are tons of things i could be doing, but im not, im just bored.... i like need to get a life or something because i have just about no friends around here to hang out with, no where to go....i just feel crazy lately, i want to like do something, just anything!!!!...
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i like need to get a life or something because i have just about no friends around here to hang out with, no where to go....i just feel crazy lately, i want to like do something, just anything!!!!... Read More
desilou:
thanks for the gift and everything. just letting me talk about the shrg and getting some of that crazy off my mind. i am still talking to the dude from high school. crazy.
havent done much lately, just been working and chilling out, went to target and got new pair of buzzers and went to town with my hair....ended up with nothing left and added some blue and, look at pretty me! hahaha
and added some blue and, look at pretty me! hahaha 
amelia:
Beautiful!
punkinhead:
It looks good on you!
take it light,
ph
take it light,
ph
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