ravensfeather

found this poem when i was cleaning out my computer, i wrote it a long time ago, well it seems like a long time...

'Sanity Comes Too Late'

A lost soul
Black
Cold and hurt
Jaded and torn
Clad in a black cloak
With fresh trails of mascara down her pale cheeks
Created from the black tears she cried
Cold
So cold
Alone in the rain
Walking down that dark path
Overgrown on all sides
Muddy at her feet
And black clouds above
She knows she will never return from this
Never live like the happy childhood she once had
That seems so log ago now
All blurry and in black and white
But now all she can see is the black
And sometimes red
That crimson color of red
That runs from her open veins
When she slits herself looking for an answer
Or an angry fix for the world she has come to hate
But the answers never come
It just brings more pain
And more questions into her life
She continues to walk
And tries to put aside all her thoughts
All of her pain
All of the hurt
But her mind is constantly clouded
Like a dark heavy fog
All around her
Making her incapable of seeing
She trips
And falls
Rolling over herself
Down a hill
Through the mud and leaves on the ground
And ending with a small sharp tree stump through her chest
The leaves and mud begins to change from brown to red
A dark red
The blood runs all around her
She closes her eyes
Never to open them again
Shes gone
Gone from this cruel and hate filled world
But where has she gone to?
Is it REALLY all over?
Or is she in heaven?
Or hell?

* SNAP *

She wakes up
It was all a dream
She calms down
Only to realize
That she is not far from the dreamland she just left
Shes numb
She can feel her feet
Or her legs
Hands
Arms
She screams out
But no sound is made
Her cries will go on unheard
By her parents
Sleeping peacefully
Just in the next room
Unaware of what they will wake to
Wake to their daughter lying in a crusty pool of blood
Lying dead
There only daughter
DEAD
Lying there in blood
A pool of blood created by her depressed soul
And by the rusty old razor lying beside her
The old razor she took
And slashed her wrists and arms countless times
She did it the right way too
From the wrist up
Not across
That last slash sealed her fate
For all eternity
Is all over for her
Darkness washes over her
Like a cold black ocean wave
Yet so does her sanity
The sanity she has been looking for all this time
This whole damn time
And shes found it
But its too late to save her
Its all over
Silent screams
Jaded love
Hidden salvation
Help me
Help me
Im fading away
I love you
Shes gone

-RavensFeather-
First created on 6/24/00
Revised on 01/01/01