oooh i have been crazy lately 
well i guess not really....ive mostly been sitting around watching movie after movie and going through my magazines taking clippings out and articles that i want to use to Mod Podge. I drove 40 min yeasterday just to go to ToysRus, and i spend over 100 dollars there, found some good shit, hehe...
tonight i went over to my neighboors house and got a little drunk with him and his roommate, he is so fucking hot, and he ALWAYS hits on me, wants to come over and fuck or masturbate together, and i always say no
because i just dunno...im so fucking weird, like, i want to have sex with him, i have, and it was good, and i want to again, but for whatever reason i am just so weird about sex, i get so fucking nervous and worried....i know it all has to do with my anxiety disorder, but i just want to be like everyone else and have some fucking fun....but i guess i will just stay here in my little cave of a apartment, and pretend that i am making friends and having fun....*sigh*...such is my life so far
well i guess not really....ive mostly been sitting around watching movie after movie and going through my magazines taking clippings out and articles that i want to use to Mod Podge. I drove 40 min yeasterday just to go to ToysRus, and i spend over 100 dollars there, found some good shit, hehe...
tonight i went over to my neighboors house and got a little drunk with him and his roommate, he is so fucking hot, and he ALWAYS hits on me, wants to come over and fuck or masturbate together, and i always say no
because i just dunno...im so fucking weird, like, i want to have sex with him, i have, and it was good, and i want to again, but for whatever reason i am just so weird about sex, i get so fucking nervous and worried....i know it all has to do with my anxiety disorder, but i just want to be like everyone else and have some fucking fun....but i guess i will just stay here in my little cave of a apartment, and pretend that i am making friends and having fun....*sigh*...such is my life so far VIEW 11 of 11 COMMENTS
i personally don't think it's a good idea to just have sex with someone you aren't in a relationship with especially if you aren't emotionally stable. i know i always thought it was a great idea, especially if it was with someone i've been with before.. and afterwards (occasionally during) i always felt worse and just wanted to cry.
call me old fashioned or... a cunt... whatever
but! do whatever makes you happy.
//i'm glad you got some good shit at the toysRus!
hearts
.xo
hope everything goes well,
ph