ravensfeather

Well, today i truley feel like a fucking little looser hermit. its my boyfriends birthday and we were all excited because we are playing cards tonight for money and i was going to play just for him, well...it turns out that 14 people were going to be here, and i was doing well, talking to people, and then it came time to go upstairs and play and i freaked out and had a panic attack so i sat in my room for hours after i cryed for a while and i feel really bad for not like being all happy and spending time with him on his birthday im such a looser