ravensfeather

well, looks like the shit hit the fan, im falling apart, my boyfriend broke up with me because he "cant be in a realtionship right now, i need to be single" and i undestand his points, but it hurts, i cant stop crying, i just want to rip my heart out so i cant feel like this anymore, why did we even start this realtionship, i try not to be a bitter person, but i dont want to love, because the hurt from being lonley is much better than the hurt at the end of a realtionship, i cant handle this, i cant, first im developing an anxiety disorder, then i quit my job because of it, and now this....its just too much for my, im to fragile, i always thought that i was stronger than this, but aparently im not.....i just cant stop crying, i just cant....i just want a hug, just about everyone i know is so far away now, but i dont want to move back home, seems stupid.....

fuck everything