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"The Fight" by: AC

Every day, I feel the pain of your leaving.
The hole in my life proves tricky to fill.
I try to concentrate on what I am doing,
but I keep dreaming of you, still.
I just keep fighting against memories of you.

This fight I can not win.
I know that I will lose.
The agony that you've caused me
makes it hard for me to choose.
Do I want a life without you?

I tried so hard to hate you,
convince myself that all is well.
It's no use, I guess, to pretend.
If I hate anyone it is myself.
I guess I'm fighting to accept the loss.

This fight I can not win.
I know that I will lose.
The agony that you've caused me
makes it hard for me to choose.
Can I live a life without you?

I sit and stare at your picture;
a bitter reminder of a happier time.
You never told me the reason that you left.
Please tell me, what the Hell was my crime?
I have to fight not to cry when I say your name.

This fight I can not win.
I know that I will lose.
The agony that you've caused me
makes it hard for me to choose.
Do I want life, or do I want you?

I sat outside your house last night,
watching you dance thru your window.
The pistol weighed heavy in my pocket;
hard reality that keeps my mind cold.
I had to fight not to scream your name.

This fight I can not win.
I know that I will lose.
The agony that you've caused me
makes it hard for me to choose.
If I have no life, then why should you?

The dark room fits my emotions,
cold and unknown to the sun.
I try to remember the taste of your kiss,
but the only thing I taste is the gun.
I have to fight to keep my finger on the trigger.

This is one fight I will win.
I've used up my last excuse.
When it came down to the ending,
it wasn't hard for me to choose.
I'd rather die than dream of you.