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It's 7 AM, and I can't stay in bed. My blood sugar is through the roof (AGAIN). That means I'm insanely tired, but it also means I have to pee every half hour, which is counter productive to trying to sleep. This disease will fucking kill me, I know it. I have too much insulin resistance, and my apetite is apparently too big for a normal diabetic lifestyle. Fuck you, pancreas... Hey, hhat actually reminds me of something funny I wanted to write, I'll have to get back to that,

Good thing I thought of that, because I need some motivation to be on here as of late. If I wasn't paid up for a year, I'd take a few months off like I did in the spring. Mind you, that time I didn't expect to come back (thank Kleio for that). There's just nothing for me here right now. Chat has gone stale in the rooms I hang out in, the boards-at least to me-have degenerated into nothing more than puns and silly wordplay, and appreciation threads one-upping each other. Many of the groups I'm in have just lost my interest. Even the photosets, which were pretty much the only reason I was on here for more than a year, do nothing for me right now. It could be me, though I've pulled myself out of my latest slump and i'm feeling better in that regard, so really, this does not stem from bad mindset. But i'm here and paid for, so as it stands, I'm not going anywhere.

In other news, I'm flat broke. Yesterday was payday, and I already have no money left. I'll have to work as many full time hours as I can come December just to afford the holidays, which includes 3 little ones to buy for and a new years eve party to plan.

There's other stuff I'm not fond of on this site, but it's not stuff I want to discuss out in the open. I have more respect than that.

Ok, the good news:
I've lost weight
I'm holding an average above 85% at school (though I don't have all my midterm marks yet, so that could change)
Both the Senators, AND the Red Wings are playing tonight (in different time zones, so no overlap), so I am totally getting my hockey fix
I'm currently designing 2 web sites, and revamping a 3rd ASAP. I realy haven't missed the boat in studying media design. i've finally figured out what I want to be when I grow up.

There's more, but this thing is long enough as it is. I wanted to vent more about my Friday and how it utterly annoyed me, but I got caugh up in another rant (oh well).

I realized I didn't post a question last time, so here's 2:
1. You're having me over for dinner. What do you make for me?
2. if (and I immensely stress-IF) there were more pics of me, what would you want to see? Oh, and TRY to be tasteful, people!

Ok, time to go frag in hopes that occupies my time until the blood sugar demon stops whipping my ass. Today will be comfort day, me thinks.