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I'm in an ideal situation, given the circumstances. My life is unstable on all fronts. My mind is frazzled, and I'm exhausted both physically and mentally. My body is begging me to change, my stress levels are through the roof, and I have no idea where I will be a month from now, let alone longer. But, I have a reson to not think about all that. My friends aren't doing well. So for them, I make their problems my own. Now I have something much less daunting to think about, though just as serious.

I'm very protective of my close friends. I can think of at least 3 off the top of my head (maybe more, I didn't stop and think much) who are in life-altering phases with big changes going on. They don't really affect me, other than they affect my friends, and I feel for them (for lack of being with them). I think sometimes I get just as frustrated over not being able to fix their problems as I am over not fixing mine. All I can do right now is cling to what little I have and hope I don't end up treading water. And they will cling to me, and I will keep them afloat.

Even if it drowns me.