ratchetstardust

Oh Goodness. What have I been doing? Looking for a job halfheartedly. I can't help it. All of the jobs I've seen are full time, which I can't do because of school, or involve working with dead animal. I'm going to go around tomorrow and give it some actual effort. I've just been busy with school lately, and taking pictures and trying to pay much needed attention to my friends. And I hate looking for jobs. I wish someone would just give me some stupid work to do and some money. That would be so fantastic.

My dad offered me a place to live. It's a two bedroom trailer in the country at the edge of city limits with a big addition built on. It's also on a fairly large piece of land. So, in other words, it's perfect. Did I mention that he doesn't want rent? So I'm going to try to get out of my lease. Hopefully telling
my landlord I lost my job and can't afford rent anymore will work. We would save money, and I need to get out of the city. I hate cities. They're full of stupid people living in stupid houses with all of their stupid shit and stupid beliefs. I'm not any better, but I can at least deal with myself somewhat. And in the country I could walk outside naked when it's warm. I need that.

My life is terribly boring. I accidentally started a beer on an empty stomach. "Why am I so drunk? I only finished half of it?" "oh right...no food." I don't even feel like eating, but I haven't all day, so I should. It would be the healthy thing to eat. Particularly protein and grains. I've been shoving myself full of vegetables lately, which is AWESOME, but it should be more balanced. I don't know what I'll make. I guess I'll finish this beer, do the dishes and start something to cook while I clean the house.