Changes or uncertain point in my life now?

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Hi there SG land! 💘

Life has been really crazy lately! I finished university and now I finally have a bachelor degree in economic sphere, been in Saint-Petersburg again, shot some nice sets for you and did some tats for me, finally met my old and new friends with whom the Corona put us apart, I also started to spend more ‘quality’ or normal time with my family and relatives and so on.

Now here’s the question: what’s next? To be honest, I don’t know. This is the first time in my life when I don’t know what to do actually. I always knew what I’m gonna do and and totally knew my life goals at least for couple years but now I’m completely not sure what would be better to do in this situation. The universe is giving me the signs that it might be better to slow down a little bit because of the world situation my emotional state is freaking unstable and I don’t know how to stop feel like happy person and shit at the same time.

I still can’t travel, can’t see new people with who I’ve been staying in touch for many years, but we don’t have an opportunity to meet because the borders are closed and nobody knows when exactly they will be open and this is making me nervous and sad etc.

The most common question that I receive this summer is what I’m gonna do right now with work and what activities I’m gonna participate in. And again the answer is ‘I don’t know’. To be honest, I don’t see myself in the hospitality industry at all because it’s just not my thing and I would love to do something else. I’ll probably do some freelance work because right now it’s the most suitable thing at all. Or maybe to revive my YouTube channel again. Plus taking pics and creating content is also a nice thing but it takes a lot of self work and emotional resources. But I guess it’s worth it.

I do have 1 goal that I really want to achieve and it’s the Spanish language courses abroad. I don’t want to take useless masters degree I really want to study Spanish. Studying this language in uni showed me all the versatility and beauty of this language. And I would love to know it as well as I know English so language courses would be the perfect way to learn this language.

But the price of these courses is simply unaffordable for me and for my budget because it is logical that I now almost don’t earn money and I don’t want to ask my parents personally because they paid all these four years for my education and I set a goal to save this money myself. I can say I'm saving for my dream again. Well, wish me luck hahah!

And yeah I’m back to my social media sites. Been having a little rest because my eye started to twitch again because of the nerves and I decided spend less time in the internet, but I’m back ❤️ btw sorry for this long read! I’m unstoppable when I’m writing hahah!

I hope y’all stay healthy and safe!

Lots of love,

Sasha Redkaya

@missy @rambo @lemon @eirenne

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gawjusdaniel1992:
Stay healthy @redkaya & you look after yourself i mean i needed to take time off in Covid-19 for big reasons so just be patient hun & i can understand your goals massively because this pandemic has had it rough for all of us but you are a fabulous woman so stay strong & well & remember to stay gorgeous
copernicus_:
Hey Sasha, First off, just stay healthy! I don't know what the Covid situation is there but we've lost over 160000 lives here so far and they say that 1000 a day are dying. And congrats  on getting your degree. As for your wish to learn Spanish, are there even any classes going on there now? I had thoughts of learning German way back when I was in 7th grade, but I was more concerned then with disrupting the class and the next year the teacher wouldn't let me back in the class. haha She said I gave her gall stones. lol It might have helped me years later when I was in the Army and stationed in Germany.

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