Hey guys, lil update, lots of stuff on my chest as usual.
So I've been with the girl I've chased for like 9 months for a week officially. I've dreamt about her finally seeing me like more than just a friend. I've been through countless conversations with her about guys and how every ones she met during this period (and before) are jerks who can't appreciate her as they should've.
So on and off i was, because for a long time i felt she wasn't seeing me as anything more than a confident. But then things evolved, in a good way for once. And anyway, we grabbed a bite on december 31th for lunch, and after this she said to me "then our official date is the 31th !". I was stunned to think about the fact that it was it. It is it, right ? After 1 year of loneliness, depression, anger, frustration and so on... I finally won the battle. But i guess not the war.
We slept together this Thursday for the first time. And as i'm the "stage-fright" kinda guy at first, it didn't went perfectly.
Since that same night, i feel like she takes a long time to answer compared to usual, she seems cold and if i don't send her a message, i don't get any news, even though she's on her phone 90% of the time when we're together... And now after trying to push a bit to see her soon, she tells me we probably won't see each other until next monday (we both have exams in-between).
But a week without a single break dedicated to spending time with me ? I mean we've been friends before, so it's not like we just hooked up in a bar as strangers, so i don't get this attitude as to me, the start of a relationship is the most exciting.
I know i'm a bit of a nut bags when i'm not reassured because of my own mental problems, but i can't help but feel like this is not a relationship and that something is wrong, even if she says there isn't.
Am i just going crazy ?
