So I've been on this girl for a few months, she was a friend (not really close) at first but I've always find her attractive. Recently we've been talking and seeing each other more and more, she was always talking to me about guys she liked and how they were jerks with her. So I was like "you need to be with someone who really appreciate you" and all, and of course I was thinking about me...
After a few "dates" with her, it started to be more and more ambiguous til the point where she brought the subject. She told me she thought about us but she's caught in her memoire and all and she might have to go abroad for a formation in May for 6 months. So from this point I was at the same time relieved because I felt she actually liked me but I also felt like this wasn't gonna happen and she was gonna forget me in a snap of the finger.
Then, from nowhere, this other girl from work became friendlier to me, we kind of hit it off and we talked about what we wanted and how we felt like the people involved in our lives right now aren't the best for us, even though we are tempted in the fear of loneliness.
My mind went nuts and I started to really like her, we have a great chemistry, we connect on a lot of stuff and she's so my type... While with the first girl I started to see something in her that I can relate to not long ago and the main parts of her personality that show up aren't that attractive to me.
But just today she calls me, says she needs to tell me something -better in person- so she wanted us to meet up. Although I wasn't in the mood at all and she ended up telling me right away : last night she went across a guy she really liked a few months back who liked her too but being much older than her didn't go for it. And he asked her about her, especially if she's seeing someone. She told him about our situation and apparently, he told her to go for it, not to make the same mistakes as him and pass near what can be an amazing story.
So he pretty much changed her mind and I think she wants to be with me now. BUT I was on the fence all week like thinking about my colleague and her telling me the other girl is not right for me and I would be better off without her.
So what the hell am I suppose to do now? My heart is leaning towards my colleague yet if I pass near the opportunity of being sure to be with the first one that'll be it for me.
I don't want any regrets, but if I had the choice to be with her or my colleague, I'd go with my colleague...
Heeelllpppp
PS: Sorry for the long post and the typos
