So i'm here again in a shitty situation, i'm gonna have to talk with my gf, and it won't be a pleasant one.
I'd like to talk about it with you guys, to have some more advice and different opinions on the situation.
Basically, we've been together for a year, but with distance. We've seen each other every other month or so, but recently its been tougher as we hadn't seen each other for 2 months + we had issues. I was feeling like i was single and it was weird.
Then she came back, we saw each other last tueday til thursday ; at first it looked better but then it quickly went wrong, to me :
To sum up, sex isn't really great as she has a lot of complex on all sorts of stuff, plus she blocks on simple things and it seems more like a job than a relationship to me right now as i almost have to teach her some things even though she has more experience than me (she's also 1 year older than me). I'm frustrated and i feel tired, i'm about to be 22 yo, and at my age i think it's insane to face such problems in a relationship.. I have so many cravings, desires that she's not into or doesn't like..
There's also the fact that when i last saw her, i realized that we (or i) had nothing to say. She talked me about some stuff but then it's like there was nothing. And i felt bored.
But still i have feelings for her, and she is back where i live from september FOR ME... It's a huge weight on my shoulder that if i left her she might not be where she would want to be (in Brussel currently) + she told me -as i left her for 1 week in november before realizing i made a huge mistake- she fears i'm gonna left her from that moment. I had no idea and that freaked me, because she keeps saying she will never leave me, I will leave her..
So i'm torned. I feel trapped by my remorse, my guilt of leaving and hurting her. But i feel like this isn't like the beginning and i'm not entirely happy and blooming.
+ She is leaving again, one last time in 1 week for 5 weeks, and i don't know if i can hold on any longer in this situation.
I'm screwed, am i ?
