Well first things first : I love you all! You bring such inspiration to my day and motivate me to accomplish new and better things. Thank you for being you and providing me the opportunity to be, ME!
This sign last all of 15 minutes before someone called and complained! lol
Well its Saturday and once again I am in the office
I was trying to get some stuff accomplished but I kept heating back to my desk and looking at this
So here's my ugly mug
lol hope that brings a smile to your faces!
[MY Life]
Anyways I am having a son born on or about 8 July! I am excited about it as it is my first son. Mom not so much. We are not married and currently having some serious issues. On - off and what not. Hmmmm oh well. When I talk to here about it (our relationship) it normally ends up with me paying for everything and her sitting around the house. Shit its like that now! I work 65+ hours a week now to provide the best I can for my family. I work hard and diligently to put a roof over heads food on the table and all kinds of stuff. Yet I can not get a straight answer.
She gets upset that I work, yet has no issues with spending my money, and asking for more. She use to work and she worked hard, but that changed over a year ago when we moved in together. She stopped working. Not because she was let go, she just slowly migrated away from working as much 6 days a week to 3 days to 1 and poof up and stopped! I could and can afford the household bills on my own but the cost of it does put me in a pickle. I have two daughters from my ex-wife. Mary-helen and Maeve.
She has one daughter, Ny'esha
My daughters live with their mother about 40 minutes away from me and Meeka and Ny'esha live with me. Ny'esha calls me Daddy and everything and looks to me as her father figure. I am perfectly fine with that. I treat all the girls as if they are mine. Wouldn't have it any other way.
Now Meeka has a friend whom has 4 children. She was recently kicked out of their home and had nowhere else to go. So now i am running a halfway house for people. WOW I just added 5 more people to my household! Yet all the kids call me Uncle Dave and give me hugs and such when I walk in the door. Heres some of us at the park.
Its great I love kids! We run around and do crazy things play at the park when I have time and just plain be crazy
Finally, here is Meeka.
She would make me happy back then... Now not so much. We still live together and she is having our child. Cian Reese White. Yet I can never ever ever figure out what she wants. She wants to move on and with her life, due to the fact that I work constantly. So I told her to go ahead and walk. Yet she stays and at times tells me that she loves me. One week we will be a couple, two weeks we won't. She asks If I will ever get married again. Oh she did not like that answer.
I told her that I am not ready to have another marriage. My first lasted 8.5 years and I am not ready to repeat that. Well after that shes cold as ice and wants to move on to another life. Ok I told her Marriage is a mutual choice. Its not that I am not committed to you. Its that I am not ready to have that path put infront of me again. Then its poof over between us for two more weeks.
Finally I told her that I give up. Between the fighting over this relationship and teh consistant, I need 40 dollars for Hair and Nails and what not to the can I have some money for shopping, to Ny'esha needs this and I need that. I have offically been nickle and dimed to death.
Right now its off between us, but I am sure tomorrow she will change her mind. This frustrates me, I am having my first son! Yes I always wanted a son! Yet this if its not my way its not right. Finally Last week I gave her $50 to go shopping, cause she asked. Everyone got something but me. I asked her when the last time I have purchased anything for myself. lol She laughed and thought about it then answered. I never see you buy yourself anything. I told her thats right. Then asked her when the last time she bought me anything, including XMas, and Valentines day, and my Bday. o0o0o0o0o no answer. Then finally the answer comes out.....Never. A HA!
Then she quickly states, I don't want to buy you anything with your money it would defeat the purpose. Yeah ok. Poof I told her that this relationship is costing me more than its worth and that I can find 7 other roomates that would help with the bills instead of sitting around the house all day and playing face book. WTF
It is not that she can not find a job. I gave her a job and she refused to take it. Why answering the phones at my office and making $10 an hour was not worth it! ok just sit around then. I am tired of it and need a vacation. Between my work and personal life I want a break from it all. Ontop of that my oldest Daughter Mary-Helen hates her and my youngest Maeve Loves her. I can not win.
Currently we are in that limbo we still live together but not period. I come home , maybe eat and go to bed by 1-2 am. she crawls in at 3-4 after facespacing all night on the computer. I get up at 6 and start again. FML
[/My Life]
Is it to much to ask for to be happy.
Hope you all have a super Zombie day.
Smiles and all that
This sign last all of 15 minutes before someone called and complained! lol
Well its Saturday and once again I am in the office
I was trying to get some stuff accomplished but I kept heating back to my desk and looking at this
So here's my ugly mug
lol hope that brings a smile to your faces!
[MY Life]
Anyways I am having a son born on or about 8 July! I am excited about it as it is my first son. Mom not so much. We are not married and currently having some serious issues. On - off and what not. Hmmmm oh well. When I talk to here about it (our relationship) it normally ends up with me paying for everything and her sitting around the house. Shit its like that now! I work 65+ hours a week now to provide the best I can for my family. I work hard and diligently to put a roof over heads food on the table and all kinds of stuff. Yet I can not get a straight answer.
She gets upset that I work, yet has no issues with spending my money, and asking for more. She use to work and she worked hard, but that changed over a year ago when we moved in together. She stopped working. Not because she was let go, she just slowly migrated away from working as much 6 days a week to 3 days to 1 and poof up and stopped! I could and can afford the household bills on my own but the cost of it does put me in a pickle. I have two daughters from my ex-wife. Mary-helen and Maeve.
She has one daughter, Ny'esha
My daughters live with their mother about 40 minutes away from me and Meeka and Ny'esha live with me. Ny'esha calls me Daddy and everything and looks to me as her father figure. I am perfectly fine with that. I treat all the girls as if they are mine. Wouldn't have it any other way.
Now Meeka has a friend whom has 4 children. She was recently kicked out of their home and had nowhere else to go. So now i am running a halfway house for people. WOW I just added 5 more people to my household! Yet all the kids call me Uncle Dave and give me hugs and such when I walk in the door. Heres some of us at the park.
Its great I love kids! We run around and do crazy things play at the park when I have time and just plain be crazy
Finally, here is Meeka.
She would make me happy back then... Now not so much. We still live together and she is having our child. Cian Reese White. Yet I can never ever ever figure out what she wants. She wants to move on and with her life, due to the fact that I work constantly. So I told her to go ahead and walk. Yet she stays and at times tells me that she loves me. One week we will be a couple, two weeks we won't. She asks If I will ever get married again. Oh she did not like that answer.
I told her that I am not ready to have another marriage. My first lasted 8.5 years and I am not ready to repeat that. Well after that shes cold as ice and wants to move on to another life. Ok I told her Marriage is a mutual choice. Its not that I am not committed to you. Its that I am not ready to have that path put infront of me again. Then its poof over between us for two more weeks.
Finally I told her that I give up. Between the fighting over this relationship and teh consistant, I need 40 dollars for Hair and Nails and what not to the can I have some money for shopping, to Ny'esha needs this and I need that. I have offically been nickle and dimed to death.
Right now its off between us, but I am sure tomorrow she will change her mind. This frustrates me, I am having my first son! Yes I always wanted a son! Yet this if its not my way its not right. Finally Last week I gave her $50 to go shopping, cause she asked. Everyone got something but me. I asked her when the last time I have purchased anything for myself. lol She laughed and thought about it then answered. I never see you buy yourself anything. I told her thats right. Then asked her when the last time she bought me anything, including XMas, and Valentines day, and my Bday. o0o0o0o0o no answer. Then finally the answer comes out.....Never. A HA!
Then she quickly states, I don't want to buy you anything with your money it would defeat the purpose. Yeah ok. Poof I told her that this relationship is costing me more than its worth and that I can find 7 other roomates that would help with the bills instead of sitting around the house all day and playing face book. WTF
It is not that she can not find a job. I gave her a job and she refused to take it. Why answering the phones at my office and making $10 an hour was not worth it! ok just sit around then. I am tired of it and need a vacation. Between my work and personal life I want a break from it all. Ontop of that my oldest Daughter Mary-Helen hates her and my youngest Maeve Loves her. I can not win.
Currently we are in that limbo we still live together but not period. I come home , maybe eat and go to bed by 1-2 am. she crawls in at 3-4 after facespacing all night on the computer. I get up at 6 and start again. FML
[/My Life]
Is it to much to ask for to be happy.
Hope you all have a super Zombie day.
Smiles and all that
VIEW 12 of 12 COMMENTS
constantine:
Wow, that sucks. I hope that you can find your happiness because life is to fucking short to be miserable all of the time. After my divorce I vowed to never be that miserable again. I think that relationships are hard work, and can be worth it, but sometimes shit just needs to change or end.... If you can't tell I am in a similar situation, thus I have some strong feelings about it. 
Keep your chin up.
Keep your chin up.
airlia:
Wow, you're amazing to support so many people. But sometimes you have to look out for yourself too. Kids are one thing- they need encouragement and love, but adults are another. Hopefully you guys can find a happy solution - if not you have a wonderful baby to look forward to, and your great kids to welcome you home each day 