randy_geek

Well, I've just had my heart ripped out and shat on, what fun!

I'm going to go live under a rock for a while...

Edit: Well, I suppose I have to give you some details.

It's a long and complicated story, but I can sum it up like this:

Met a girl, we became very close friends, we both started to develop feelings for each other and we are now closer than I've ever been to anyone. We were both open about our feelings, but she was in a relationship (depsite it being a dead relationship) and I didn't want to get in the way of it.

So, we were going along happily, being friends, but I was falling in love with her and it was hurting that we couldn't be together. Then today, we had one of out deep conversations becuase something was bothering her, she was in love with someone, someone who she couldn't have, but she wouldn't say who.

Naturally I thought she was talking about me, but, I knew deep down that it wasn't and that we would never be together, not like that. So, we were talking and she asked me to be honest about what I thought, so, I opened up to here, completely, told her everything. It was then that she told me it wasn't me, it was someone else...

cue broken heart and feeling like I'm being torn apart inside.

so, 1, 2, 3, aww.....

I still love her and I don't want to lose her as a friend, it's just going to take me a while to get over this (depsite already knowing it was coming).

Well, there, I've spilled my guts...