Why do good things change and bad things seem doomed to stay the same?
So instead of going home and going to bed like I should have, I went to the beach and listened to music for a while. It was foggy and empty at the end of the pier, and even though I had my headphones on, in a way it was silent. The oceans surface was smooth, and there was hardly a breeze. There was no one out yet, like I had the whole beach to myself. I was so alone.
I called C when I got back home, in order to fill this empty void in the pit of my psyche, and went over and hung out with him until almost noon. He had coke like I havent had in months, and Im far from ashamed when I say that I indulged a bit. I took a Seroquel on my way back from the beach, so I was properly fucked up for the rest of the afternoon. I ended up getting a little sleep before I had to go back to work, but I probably could have survived on less.
Im finding that everything in my life right now is highly overrated, one way or another. Too much stock is held in the most basic shit. Cell phones, for instance. I would just cease to exist if my cell phone was lost. When did I become so dependant on technology? Sometimes I want to just shut it off and disappear. I dont want to talk to anyone, and I dont want to do anything.
Someone tell me what to expect.
Im sick of surprise conclusions.
Someone just tell me how the ending goes.
I just want to know, if I have to go alone.
Dont make me beg, Im not too proud
Ill scream at you, over the crowd.
Just spit at me and roll your eyes.
Its what Ive come to anticipate anyhow.
Go on; ignore me like you always do.
Ill wave my middle finger bye.
Dont make me beg, Im not too proud
Ill scream at you, over the crowd.
I wont beg, its not like me
Ill do it myself
Even if I have to do it alone.
I dont know where I was going with that, but its great the AAAhhh! Real Monsters is on Nicktoons and Family Guy is on Cartoon Network. I get to flip back and fourth. I havent seen Real Monsters since I was littlelike 15 or somethingeven before thatbefore I went back eastwhen I used to live in Paso
Yeah? Wellyoure hogging up all the ugly!
UPDATE -
It's 0430 and I'm waiting for The People Under the Stairs to get scary...
So instead of going home and going to bed like I should have, I went to the beach and listened to music for a while. It was foggy and empty at the end of the pier, and even though I had my headphones on, in a way it was silent. The oceans surface was smooth, and there was hardly a breeze. There was no one out yet, like I had the whole beach to myself. I was so alone.
I called C when I got back home, in order to fill this empty void in the pit of my psyche, and went over and hung out with him until almost noon. He had coke like I havent had in months, and Im far from ashamed when I say that I indulged a bit. I took a Seroquel on my way back from the beach, so I was properly fucked up for the rest of the afternoon. I ended up getting a little sleep before I had to go back to work, but I probably could have survived on less.
Im finding that everything in my life right now is highly overrated, one way or another. Too much stock is held in the most basic shit. Cell phones, for instance. I would just cease to exist if my cell phone was lost. When did I become so dependant on technology? Sometimes I want to just shut it off and disappear. I dont want to talk to anyone, and I dont want to do anything.
Someone tell me what to expect.
Im sick of surprise conclusions.
Someone just tell me how the ending goes.
I just want to know, if I have to go alone.
Dont make me beg, Im not too proud
Ill scream at you, over the crowd.
Just spit at me and roll your eyes.
Its what Ive come to anticipate anyhow.
Go on; ignore me like you always do.
Ill wave my middle finger bye.
Dont make me beg, Im not too proud
Ill scream at you, over the crowd.
I wont beg, its not like me
Ill do it myself
Even if I have to do it alone.
I dont know where I was going with that, but its great the AAAhhh! Real Monsters is on Nicktoons and Family Guy is on Cartoon Network. I get to flip back and fourth. I havent seen Real Monsters since I was littlelike 15 or somethingeven before thatbefore I went back eastwhen I used to live in Paso
Yeah? Wellyoure hogging up all the ugly!
UPDATE -
It's 0430 and I'm waiting for The People Under the Stairs to get scary...
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Have a great day at work, as great as it can get at work anyway.
damn someone just logged in to YIM... no sleep for me just yet, two days off anyway!