I want to be the one who can turn people on. I want to be the one lusted after. I want to be wanted so badly. These are all things I have given up on some time ago.
I really do think that sometimes I have died on the inside. I have so much less feelings then I did a year ago at this time. Sometimes as I drive home I wish for a car to run a red light and hit me. Maybe the fact that I think about this so much makes it more likely to happen I dont know.
Also my <a href="http://crimethinc.com/fighting/request.html">booklets</a> came today.
I really do think that sometimes I have died on the inside. I have so much less feelings then I did a year ago at this time. Sometimes as I drive home I wish for a car to run a red light and hit me. Maybe the fact that I think about this so much makes it more likely to happen I dont know.
Also my <a href="http://crimethinc.com/fighting/request.html">booklets</a> came today.
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pureblu12225:
geez I so wish I was right there to give you a huge hug and tell you everything is goin to be fine hmmmph but all I can offer is this :*Squeeze*
orchid1:
I feel like I haven't heard from you in a while, are you okay? I have some pictures of myself and my roommates on scanned in now if you'd like to see them? And the penguins in sweaters....