randomdent

I just tried to sign up for my classes and they were all canceled and that was the only thing going for me...All I fucking had to look forward to at all was school and they canceled all the classes I was going to take because of budget cuts yet they don't fucking cut the sports crap. I'm so fucking sick of everything I can't find a job or go to school. I have the same old fucking shoes that hurt my feet, the same old black pants that are falling apart, and the old black sweatshirt that I have had for the last 4 years. All fucking want is to have a shit job and to be left alone thats all I want. I can't believe that I'm going to 20 soon and I'm still living at home with no money...god I hate it here...All I would like is to have a small place I can call home in a city somewhere and maybe scrap up a small enough amount of money to go to therapy and buy my books to read...Sometimes Most of the time I really wish I would have died from that tumor in my back because it would have made things so much easier on me and everyone around me. I wouldn't have to deal with the shit known as my life and you wouldnt have to hear about it...You can call me anything you like and think anything you want to about me for wanting to always just die but I don't worry about it anymore...Maybe it's the depression talking because we all know that I should be in a intuition somewhere.

Oh yeah my mom broke my glasses on purpose so now I can't fucking see anything at all...god my eyes are bad without them....I need to leave now and my only way to leave is via car so I feel fucking sorry for people that are on the road with me when I don't have my glasses.

Just what the hell should I be doing because I have given up.