randomdent

Please don't kill yourself, things will get better and you'll find a job so you can move to a place that makes you happy. It might take time but it will be worth it when it happens. Job hunting is horrible but everyone has to do it and it always sucks, but then you'll find a great job and it will have been worth it.
And there is no reason you should feel ugly and bad, you're really hot and you'll get a girl who knows that and wants to take you in public and fuck you in the rain, hell Emily sounds like she really wants to be that girl, don't kill yourself, life will get better and if you're dead you can't enjoy all the great stuff thats still coming, you're just 19, theres so much that still has to happen, don't leave on a bad note. besides if you die now you can't sleep with Emily and I think she'd be disappointed and I'm going to guess that you would be too...