It's been quite some time.
Life has actually been treating me fairly well the past few months. I went on a two week vacation to orlando, FL last month &during my time there I was also able to meet the amazing @synatra!
Other than that, I've been in the mundane cycle of working and sleeping. I've also noticed I'm more reclusive now, and don't interact with people as often as I used to. I don't know if I'm just afraid of sounding stupid. I tend to trip over my thoughts and words when interacting with others now. I've gotten into this routine both when I wake up and before I go to sleep where I just jam for a few hours and straighten out my thoughts that are typically all jumbled. I write again. I'm finding myself motivated to start learning the things I need to. I'm pretty ashamed to not know some basic skills yet still. And I've reached a point where I'm finally going to need to learn to drive and my anxiety in cars albeit it's gotten a bit better, I'm still not at a point where I feel comfortable being a driver just yet. But my comfortability doesn't really matter, it's me staying in my comfort zone that will be my downfall.
It's been a long time since I've done a shoot now, and admittedly a part of that is because I've gained more weight and have become even more unhealthy. Which has made me self conscious. But I also think doing a shoot soon will bring back some of the confidence I've lost.
Anyways, hope all is well with you guys.
Good vibes,
-Ramen
