Yesterday was a horrible, yet good day. Horrible on personal levels, but that's not what this is about. Yesterday, I was posted on the SG facebook page, and while i recieved a lot of awesome support, i recieved some negativity as well. Which is to be expected when you put yourself out there on the internet, especially when it's nude modeling. Now, none of the negative comments bother me, I'm already aware of all my flaws. and any negative comment was from someone who isn't a member of the site, so really their opinion is the shit on the bottom of my shoe. SG liked what my style and what i represent, so that's all that mattered to me. One thing i noticed, is how a lot of people seem to admire how open i am about myself and my life and how honest i am. That it inspires some people, and that is inspiring to me to even hear that. Everyone who knows me, knows how vocal i am about things. How i generally don't hold back. That also makes it easy for people to talk to me about their personal issues and their life, even strangers. Because i listen too. In my younger years, I never had a voice of my own. I let people push me around and make me feel alone. I also just feel alone a lot of the time because of things i've gone through in life, some of which, i probably still haven't gotten over. & in my loneliness, i've learned to just put myself out there anyway. Open and honest about my life, because even if nobody is listening, those feelings, my thoughts, my VOICE is out there. And that gets rid of the loneliness, because i am not alone in putting myself out there.
I'm going back to rest since i am STILL sick. fucking lame. Thank you all so much for being awesome<3
I leave you with this quote from Dean Koontz: "She was fascinated with words. To her, words were things of beauty, each like a magical power or potion that could be combined with other words to create powerful spells."
Good vibes loves. ALWAYS<3
-Ramen
