ramby

So the retardacon or the admin changed my feedback on Craftster. Whew I was getting a bit pissy about that.

In other news, today is my sick day, I keep trying to do stuff and a quarter of the way thru I'm just so tired I can't finish. I think I need a TV then I could watch mind numbing television all day and not even think about doing anything else. I think I might throw in Twin Peaks...hmmm. Who has the X-files on DVD?

Here are some pictures of our garden



here's our japannese eggplant, where there was an eggplant, until a creature stole it



Stevedave did not watch over the garden



While Dan was gone I was bored since there was no snuggling and stuff so I made him this





I got the pattern from Craftster here

now for a rant. Why is it that just when you start feeling good about yourself some asshole comes along and knocks you on your ass? You know what, I have MS but that doesn't define me as a person, I do everything I can to lead a "norma"l life. Sometimes I have bad days, but for the most part I have good days and if you look at me you can't tell I'm sick.
I met Corneilus_Wright's family while we were on vacation. I kept asking again and again what they thought of me. I really wanted to know. I know what families think of your partner are important, well they are to me, well the family memebers that are important to me anyways. I know his family is important to him. So maybe I shouldn't have pryed but I wanted to know if they liked me. His mom worries about me being sick and how it will affect him since you know I "could" get bad someday. You know what I could also be ok for the rest of my lfe too, and anyone of us "could " have something bad happen to us at any time. His Aunt who is a Doctor in Omaha told him he should leave me and move there, she could hook him up with a hot nurse, because I'm sick. I AM NOT A LIABILITY!!!!!!!!! I'm a person who maybe on a daily basis deals with a few more things that "normal". I spent the last year living in a hole beacuse of this diagnosis and I'm finally trying to crawl out and this is what I've come up to. Fuck this shit, fuck stupid people and their stupid opnions, and their stupid healthly lives. They can kiss my fucking ass on the way out the door! Fucking Assholes!!!!!!!!!!!

there done...I'm just hoping he's not listening to them too much I don't think so, but when you already feel like you're unlovable, negative statements form just compound the feeling