ramby

Words that describe my general character
Kind hearted, compassonate, giving, loving, friendly, trusting, honest, courteous, gentle


Why am I so nice, why can't I just grow a pair and tell someone to go fuck themselves when they hurt me or let me down. I'm a little sick of being the nice guy but as much as I want to yell and scream and be generally bitchy I can't do it. Well I can be real bitchy when I'm in need of food or sleep. However when it really counts I can't bring myself to do it.

Sometimes I think I'm going to do it I'm just going to tell the fuckers what assholes they are, but no I hold back, stuff it down inside, and turn the other cheek. What's the payoff? tell me honestly what is it? That I'm a better person, it's getting old and I'm sick of being hurt. I need thicker skin and I don't know where to find it. I can despise you in everyway and still patronize you and secretly hope you'll go away and go to a very bad place after you've left too. I rage silently inside but it never comes to the surface. Blech I'm tired of being such a pusssy, and I'm tired of trusting others so freely. I don't want to get stomped on anymore.

Sorry I'm being emo...damnit I'm being nice again