rainherself

my heart has grown into this monster i can't control. the memories it holds are twisted and changed into what i want them to be. it now believes that i was happy with her. that when she cheated it wasn't really that bad. that i think she is beautiful. that i can't live without her. that there was some kind of future there. that she's only fooling herself.

but this is not the truth. it fucking hurt when she cheated and i stood by, helpless. there is only an ugly, lost little girl to be seen. and despite what my heart has believed for so long, i am still here, the world never came crashing down.

and it all ends. here and now. my foolish heart attempts to taint every happy moment i have with my family and friends. i won't allow it anymore. there's a time when all things bad, just like all thing good, must come to an end. and that time is now. i won't stand by and be a victim of this poor train wreck that i've known was a bad choice from the start. her actions only letting me know how right i was.

so, here's to you. let you never see the light, and find solace only in yourself, who you have been idolizing for too long.

here's to me. letting go and finding a happiness all my own.