I'm in San Francisco on 'business' this week. One of the beautiful parts of what I do, is that I get to travel - alot. San Francisco is one of my favorite cities - there's so much to do, and so many freaky people and places. How many cities have a place like The Power Exchange - a 3 story public sex club?
Anyway, it's been awhile since I posted. It's not that things have been uneventful, it's that I'm not sure what to post or how to say it. I don't want to just relay the sexual or selacious stuff as I'm sure no one wants to hear about the 3 way in the strip club with a client and a stunning stripper named Tabitha or things like that. I suppose from time to time, but I don't want that to be the focus.
So, I had an interesting client last night. It was a wonderful hardcore punk girl who was cheating on her 'husband', an abusive and controlling butch woman. This was very difficult for me. On the one hand, she wanted a break from the drama at home and I was more than happy to help with that. But on the other, I don't think she really wanted sex with a man...I don't think it was going to help her, really.
Sometimes, a woman calls me and I know afterward that I helped in some way. They leave happier or better for having been with me (in one way or another). Other times, I feel really really bad afterward. I know the woman won't feel better for it, and that's a real problem for me. In these cases, I often try to talk the woman out of having sex. We can go out, talk and have a nice evening, followed up with a mellow foot massage or facial / bubble bath -- something that's intimate without necessarily involving fucking. Women don't always want to fuck, even if they go so far as to pay a man to fuck them.
Last night was a situation like that. This girl has had such a rough life - born in Greece, molested by uncles, ran away to America with the first guy who would take her away, became a street kid and wandered the country until landing in SF and meeting her husband. All she's really known is people taking advantage of her and using her, controlling her. Very, very sad. And she was SO DAMN cute! Nice, long dreads, lots of piercings, tattoos (mostly bad ones, though). Just adorable.
The problem is, even if you KNOW the girl doesn't really want sex, the alternative is sometime worse -- that is "If I can't PAY someone to sleep with me, there must REALLY must be something wrong with me".
So, we made out for a good long time, I went down on her a good long time, and that was that. We took a long hot shower, where I focused on her and tried to imagine myself washing her soul as well as her body. For along time, I just stood there in the shower holding her. At first, while I was just holding her, she seemed sort of stiff and uncomfortable...then she rested her head on my chest and seemed to relax a little....then she really held me back and didn't let go. You could just sort of feel her letting go of shit.
Such is life.
I hope she calls again...not everyone can overcome their life and their past. I really think some people are beyond help. Not her.
Oh, and by the way - I get told all the time that I eat pussy like a woman.
Now THAT'S a motherfucking compliment.
Anyway, it's been awhile since I posted. It's not that things have been uneventful, it's that I'm not sure what to post or how to say it. I don't want to just relay the sexual or selacious stuff as I'm sure no one wants to hear about the 3 way in the strip club with a client and a stunning stripper named Tabitha or things like that. I suppose from time to time, but I don't want that to be the focus.
So, I had an interesting client last night. It was a wonderful hardcore punk girl who was cheating on her 'husband', an abusive and controlling butch woman. This was very difficult for me. On the one hand, she wanted a break from the drama at home and I was more than happy to help with that. But on the other, I don't think she really wanted sex with a man...I don't think it was going to help her, really.
Sometimes, a woman calls me and I know afterward that I helped in some way. They leave happier or better for having been with me (in one way or another). Other times, I feel really really bad afterward. I know the woman won't feel better for it, and that's a real problem for me. In these cases, I often try to talk the woman out of having sex. We can go out, talk and have a nice evening, followed up with a mellow foot massage or facial / bubble bath -- something that's intimate without necessarily involving fucking. Women don't always want to fuck, even if they go so far as to pay a man to fuck them.
Last night was a situation like that. This girl has had such a rough life - born in Greece, molested by uncles, ran away to America with the first guy who would take her away, became a street kid and wandered the country until landing in SF and meeting her husband. All she's really known is people taking advantage of her and using her, controlling her. Very, very sad. And she was SO DAMN cute! Nice, long dreads, lots of piercings, tattoos (mostly bad ones, though). Just adorable.
The problem is, even if you KNOW the girl doesn't really want sex, the alternative is sometime worse -- that is "If I can't PAY someone to sleep with me, there must REALLY must be something wrong with me".
So, we made out for a good long time, I went down on her a good long time, and that was that. We took a long hot shower, where I focused on her and tried to imagine myself washing her soul as well as her body. For along time, I just stood there in the shower holding her. At first, while I was just holding her, she seemed sort of stiff and uncomfortable...then she rested her head on my chest and seemed to relax a little....then she really held me back and didn't let go. You could just sort of feel her letting go of shit.
Such is life.
I hope she calls again...not everyone can overcome their life and their past. I really think some people are beyond help. Not her.
Oh, and by the way - I get told all the time that I eat pussy like a woman.
Now THAT'S a motherfucking compliment.VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
i'm back. kind of. well, we'll see.
take care