rainbabydolls

its been bad_really bad.
i have a livejournal and my own site but i feel more relaxed to talk about shit here. its like my little secret. i just get tired of who i am sometimes :/ you ever feel the pressure of people assuming you are something your not? lol yea that doesn't make sense lol

so anyways, that job i was talking about i thought i had lol well it got handed to someone i told about my promotion. funny how that works lol it crushed me; i cried. i never let my guard down and the tears wouldn't stop flowing. i SEEN my future and now it's back to working this shitty job until i get off my ass to find a better one. i still could go to carson haha i had all the answers once_______but it always seems like things get changed up around me.

i'm just a disaster lately.
fucc it; i'll survive_

______oh yea; i paypal'd my $$$ in for the 22nd sgla shindig; i can't wait and if there's any sgvegas people reading this...i'll be out there the 14th-16th email me your numbers rain@fuccyou.com

thanks for being there chris aka saki bomber lol