ragingwhore42

i don't think i can do it. leave i mean. i have no energy-and i'm gonna vomit. and i know that this shouldn't be a big deal at all-but it is to me-so isn't that enough? i know that if i take off-i'll regret it. this is stoopid. or maybe it isn't-and it's stoopid of me to even think that he'll care if i leave. the way it's working in my head is something like this-if i take off and go to schnick's or the black people's house-he'll come over to get me and refuse to leave unless i go with him-as soon as he comes home and sees i've gone-and then it will have been a big waste of my time and energy-and i'll feel like a bitch for running off-regardless of how upset i was. but he acted like he didn't care-he said he didn't know what i was talking about-and then when i was trying to be nice and not freak out-he told me to have fun and then hung up-so maybe if i leave-he'll come home and be glad. maybe this is what he wants. but it doesn't matter what he wants does it? shoudln't it just be about the fact that i'm not happy-and this keeps happening-and he blows it all off-and oh my god my head is gonna burst. what the fuck do i do? if i'm gone before 3 please-everyone give me a high five or something-cause it will probably be the bravest thing i ever did. well besides not killing myself of course-i get mad bravery points for not taking the easy way out all those years ago-right? i don't know what to do.

my grandma is evil. i thought your family was supposed to be there for emotional support, but no-she had to go off and say that if he hasn't said anything about marrying me yet-then he obviously doesn't plan on keeping me around. she's silly. sometimes i think maybe i got the insanity from her.

I never got that whole being ashamed about listening to Dashboard... thing, or any band for that matter. I've met Chris Carrabba, and he fells the music he writes, which is the only thing that matters when it comes to making music. Plus I like the style of music, and thats all that matters when listening to music.

I'm for hire!

fighting naked girls huh???????? hummmmm....... good idea

Yeah, Beck is good too. I was just listening to him yesterday.
There's a lot of music I like I don't have in my profile,
like cure, joy division, etc.
Actually big faves are also early New Order, and Bauhaus/tones on tails.

Let me/us in on this drama that's going on.
Is it happening here? Sometimes just ignoring the
stupid BS is the best way to make it go away.

What the frick happened??? Is this for real?
Sounds like some serious shit...

woah. ok, I'll come back later

Thrifting is the greatest!

uh yeah-you knwo i really think i quit. i thought that maybe people could actually be semi-adultish, and take their heads out of their asses long enough to not start shit with people. and then i realize that some people can't help it-because they're insane or whatever-and they really should grow the fuck up and stop trying to send their goons after me or whatever. i'm so fucking sick of this bullshit. i'm questioning why i still have a livejournal-and really thinking that maybe being a friendly open person-which is what i've been trying to get back to after being incredibly depressed and mildly anti-social is the dumbest thing possible when i have these dumbass fucking pricks trying to fuck with me. however-i choose to stand up for myself. i'm not going to disappear-and stop fighting it. if you want war bitch-we can have it. i'm gonna let you know now-that fucking with me is probably not the smartest thing to do. but if you want it-it's all fucking yours. i'll take your ass-and in the end you'll see how immensely stoopid you are for ever thinking you could win. so ok-i'm ready. are you?

I have mixed feeling about that club for a few different reasons. First off I think its a good club for the 18 yearolds to goto but I also really don't like the fact that my sister dances there...etc. But they do play good music and sometimes when I go there to pick her up I show a tad early and watch for bit but then that brings me right back to the fact that she works there and i dont like that.

hehe-good stuff. which one is she? i mean what does she look like-or what name does she go by?

what cartoon is it?

ok for all other curious parties go here: http://newgrounds.com/portal/uploads/31000/31826_Harry_Potter.swf

and then if you aren't too disgusted by the sheer stoopidity of it-check out the sequel....

http://newgrounds.com/portal/uploads/35000/35647_Potterdbz2.swf

I think its a fun game. I like it.

yeah well i don't. it's pretty lame. i'm gonna take it back and get tekken 4. it wasn't my idea to get the game cause i had a feeling tekken would be much better. lame.

you always having interesting word choices...

very nice pic.... heh heh

just make sure to watch out for the hef-a-lumps and wouzels....

I'm sorry.

YES!!! That is the best profile pic ever!!!!

...i'm not a vegetarian. MWA AH AAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!