you ever completely fucked something up and wished you could go back and undo it?? what the hell kinda question is that?? of course everyone has. well i spend all my time everyday doing this, and it's annoying-i have to stop with the long ass entries-that he's just gonna find some way to use against me. and staring at his picture remembering how beautiful he...
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clovesbud:
Well, she can shake her ass like party boy. for sure.
juebi:
um................... I hafta go
ok just once more before i leave. i think i'll even leave the window open until i'm walking out of the door-just so i won't update 6 more times. it just occurred to me that my great grandma still has no idea that my tongue is pierced. i have to go get flesh colored balls or something-hehehehe-that sounded funny to me. so um-landslide anyone-i forgot...
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so is there something wrong with you if you can't move no matter how much you know you should. i dread riding the bus-cause busses creep me out-or the people on them do anyway. and i so want to chain smoke right now-and you can't do that on public transporatation. sometimes i think perhaps i should give up and learn to drive. i don't like...
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ok so i suppose that's enough of that. i guess i'm going to the other side of town today-to get in some quality time with the family-like i won't be doing that all week. i'm really just going to hang out with my cousin-who's like 13 or 14, that i'm trying to train to be bad but still make his parents think he's good. we'll...
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i wish everyone was as cool as james. he comes over and takes me out to eat and chain smokes with me and makes me go on coffee runs with him cause he's an addict. and he's the coolest. these aren't really the only reasons he's the coolest. but they help. he saves me from my misery. which is good. and then we sit out...
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demigauge:
i need soeone cool to save me from my misery...anyway you should try red rush..that's addictive
earplug6947:
swan? what the fuck? am i missing something here??
(is it eric? eric's pregnant? it's gunna be a socker player, yes it is. yes it is!)
billy passed the third grade
oh what a glorious day
[line i can't fuckin' remember]
the billy madison way.
yeah.
what can i say? i guess i saved the day. eric doesn't get the company.
and now back to me being moody.
(is it eric? eric's pregnant? it's gunna be a socker player, yes it is. yes it is!)
billy passed the third grade
oh what a glorious day
[line i can't fuckin' remember]
the billy madison way.
yeah.
what can i say? i guess i saved the day. eric doesn't get the company.
and now back to me being moody.
i feel all nutzoid today. i want to spend the day in bed chain-smoking and trying not to rip my hair out. why are so many people so afraid of me?? i'm quite harmless and silly to tell the truth. i want another vacation-but i said i can't have anymore big ones till i turn 21. it looks like i may be headed for LA...
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terriblyrattled:
a vacation from what?
ragingwhore42:
from sitting here in front of this thing everyday. or something like that.
i think today i shall re-braid my hair and possibly debate dreading it some more. i really want to-but i'm so indecisive-i know i'll change my mind 2 months after i do it. i've been thinking about it for years-and it would be quite lovely to not have to deal with my hair anymore. maybe it would actually get longer as well. ok-anyway. i took...
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ragingwhore42:
well i lied-it's a bit later now and i still haven't done anything. samuel will surely get me for this. i want to do soemthing-but i'm not sure what-and i'm posting here so i don't update 20 times in one day again. this boredom thing must stop. i've been listening to too much good stuff. i finally took a tori break since i will get more than my fill of her in a few weeks here-when dykes and homos attack-and i've switched to the old school. the beautiful bowie mostly-and i must say i'm falling more in love with him by the second. perhaps quicksand will save my world.
Don't believe in yourself
Don't deceive with belief
Knowledge comes with death's release
so now i shall wish i had the rest of the hunky dory album-or at least knew of somewhere to download it. but then again i shouldn't let this continue too much longer. it might lead to a petty day-as in a tom petty day-and my roommates play his bad stuff all the time-and i'm not sure i can deal with any of it anymore. but it always reminds me of those good old days-the "early teenage years"-most of which i wasn't even a teen for-when seeing petty was a frequent event-and i took show us your tits signs to shows and he did-after noting that he'd make me do the same but i appeared to be 10. i was actually 12 or maybe 13 but yeah-not insulted cause i got petty boobs and not everyone can say that right??? i've passed go-see no $200. i have to go put on another record. the day has just begun and i still have on no clothes. how did i get myself into this old music trap??? i love it-maybe i'll never come out this time. did anyone get a word of this. i'm pretty sure i did not.
Don't believe in yourself
Don't deceive with belief
Knowledge comes with death's release
so now i shall wish i had the rest of the hunky dory album-or at least knew of somewhere to download it. but then again i shouldn't let this continue too much longer. it might lead to a petty day-as in a tom petty day-and my roommates play his bad stuff all the time-and i'm not sure i can deal with any of it anymore. but it always reminds me of those good old days-the "early teenage years"-most of which i wasn't even a teen for-when seeing petty was a frequent event-and i took show us your tits signs to shows and he did-after noting that he'd make me do the same but i appeared to be 10. i was actually 12 or maybe 13 but yeah-not insulted cause i got petty boobs and not everyone can say that right??? i've passed go-see no $200. i have to go put on another record. the day has just begun and i still have on no clothes. how did i get myself into this old music trap??? i love it-maybe i'll never come out this time. did anyone get a word of this. i'm pretty sure i did not.
demigauge:
just like to say hi!!!
ok so that was more than enough bad for a long time. i'm happy. i love rainbows and puppies and ponies and i just wish that everyone was this happy all the time. that was convincing right?? i'm sorry to those of you who i may have freaked out-i'm a bad person. but i'm so happy now-i'll never freak anyone out again. at least not...
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i thought these angsty teenage years were supposed to be behind me. well the teen part is i suppose-buf fuck, when does the rest end. i have successfully made an ass of myself and scared someone-who i had way too much fun talking to. it's so rare that i enjoy anyone these days. i don't know why this whole sobriety thing sounded like a good...
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well i have officially given up. things just never work the way they should-i'm beginning to wonder if there's a reason that everything that brings me happiness fades so quickly. i understand that i'm probably pretty unfun to deal with or be around these days. and maybe that's why i chose to go hang out with the family today-we all hate each other-but it's ok,...
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lefty:
dont be hard on yourself... death is never an easy thing to deal with.. ive only once been to a funeral where i had to see the deceased... i kept thinking "hes gonna get up, and be alive", but he didnt ofcourse... take a day off, and cry, certainly that could help... remember though... no matter how bad you make think things are, there is always someone whos got things worse... dont take the easy way out, cause its never easy... ok i think im done...