ragingwhore42

so is there something wrong with you if you can't move no matter how much you know you should. i dread riding the bus-cause busses creep me out-or the people on them do anyway. and i so want to chain smoke right now-and you can't do that on public transporatation. sometimes i think perhaps i should give up and learn to drive. i don't like asking for rides-and i don't mind riding the MAX-just the bus-but i have to take the bus to the MAX now-cause i live so far from it. i don't know. i don't think that a fear of cars would mix well with driving-or that driving would mix well with hatred for people that can't drive-as well as playing gta:vc and always wanting to run said dumbasses off of the road. bah!! i need to get off my ass and go-before i take too long and then get there and only have a few hours to play. it takes about an hour to get there-and luckily i can get a ride home-which means i can stay until around 8:30-but i have to search for drugs for friends while i'm out there-since i've become anti-social as hell and have no connections out here. maybe i should wait until i go home-i could probably get better stuff for less there-grrr! i'm trying to not talk myself out of going-because i'm becoming a recluse-and it's not fun or cool or whatever. ok so yeah-i still haven't even convinced the homos to party when they get here in 2 weeks. but i can do that when i go home. and maybe i should kidnap my little brother so he doesn't have to hang out with my grandma and my great grandma for a solid month. i guess my uncle could help him out as well-but we'll see. i think he'd much rather come here and actually have things to do and places to go and such. i have to stop thinking out loud and get dressed. er maybe i can break the record for longest amount of time sat around naked after a shower. i'm already working on 2 and a half hours.