i thought these angsty teenage years were supposed to be behind me. well the teen part is i suppose-buf fuck, when does the rest end. i have successfully made an ass of myself and scared someone-who i had way too much fun talking to. it's so rare that i enjoy anyone these days. i don't know why this whole sobriety thing sounded like a good idea-but it's become quite apparent that i can't handle it. i've turned into a complete nutcase in the past few days. no one wants to be around me-or sleep with me-next to me-with me, it's all the same these days i suppose-but i can't say i blame him-or anyone. this is fucking horrid. i've never wanted to run away from myself this much-i'll just follow everyone else. ready-set..........
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