ragefilledmuffin

I hear you about the club thing. I found one here that I really like - I just avoid going on nights where they let in the 18-21 crowd. I'm not a big fan of feeling like a Dorm Mother

Good to hear that your peircings are healing up nicely! I tell ya - I spend a lot of time tromping around Hollywood - and there are really good tattoo/piercing places about every 20 feet. I just know that the next time I go I'm gonna end up with something new.

hahaha thanks!

I thinks it's a good idea, I hope it helps her. How's the piercings? In regards to your answer about the meal. I don't know about you but anthing I do after getting tattooed is always more intense. Something about the pain.

Thank you, come again.
I need a drive thru.

LOL

A drunken devil duckie - rock!!!!! I plan to be in the same shape myself later tonight

So - did ya get new piercings?? Huh? huh?? didya???


I want more too.....I'm thinking nipples....but I'm not sure yet.

And ummm...yeah. You should do a set.
*nods*

I'm actually looking for a place by myself - I know it would be smarter financially to have a roommate, but, at this point, I REALLY need to live alone.
Well - with my kitty of course

I have an "after" picture up. I didn't think to take a "before" picture but I know I have one somewhere.

As far as piercings go, maybe I spend a lot of time in independently-owned places, where people are more relaxed. I suppose I see very few alternative piercings in corporate America.

What's a tragus?
I've always wanted one of those trashy, honneymoon suite, red, heart-shaped beds that goes round in circles and vibrates. In actuality I sleep on a piece of shit Ikea, hard as a rock, no box springs bed. Just in case you were wondering.

I have a 95% success rate of sniffing out rats.
It sucks sometimes cause other people take too long to figure it out. I have to watch my tongue until other people open their eyes.

I don't really size people up.
I try to honestly give them a fair shake.
I really would like to enjoy the company of more people, but for the most part they annoy or baffle me.

you should get this cd.

Should be back to your e-mail.

Houses are good for investment and bad for freedom. Unless of course you can afford paying someone to do the yard work. (which I cannot)

i missed free frosty day?!

Thanks for the chin-up. I'm being a bit less hard on myself now than when I wrote that, but I also came to another, related realization that I feel even worse about, which you may also have encountered before, if you've encountered the rest...
In a nutshell, most of the criticism I mentioned came toward the end... just as she had finally made some big breakthroughs, and her breakthroughs were panicking me, because they meant -- in my own mind, anyway -- that she woudn't need me anymore... but I needed her.
In a period of six months, my brother hanged himself to death in an abandoned watertower, my adoptive father died, and then came all that mess (I'm sure you've heard) with my grandmother sick, dying, funeral, selling the house, moving across the country, etc.
I was freaked out, completely crazy from the stress, and couldn't do it alone, so like a dumbass I go and start toxically destroying the self-esteem of the woman I love most so she would think she hadn't made any progress, and couldn't be independent (and thus, leave me alone with all that stuff I couldn't cope with). Conversely, I had spent much of the first 2-1/2 years of our relationship trying to build up her self-esteem and make her get to the very point -- healthy self-esteem, confidence, independence -- that started to panic me.
Naturally, that only convinced her that she had to leave the toxicity behind. So, here's the kicker --- by the time the stress was over and I caught up with her in getting better, and was ready to move on to a healthier new life with her, it was too late. I had poisoned everything.
We have done a good deal of talking in the past few days, and we can probably remain friends, but I know that she'll never love me again, and all I can do about that is blame myself.


[Edited on May 13, 2005 11:49PM]

I'm probably going to major in psychology or sociology too. Good luck with the job thing, or in getting your masters.

Your response to my journal made me smile. I did have fun and I hope I have learned things about myself. Its good to know that I just might not be a total fuck up.

If you're old then I'm dead. Hey, that would explain a lot.

Free jacuzzi and pool is always a good thing. Have fun!