ragefilledmuffin

Alright, time to rant and rave.
I broke up with a boy about two and a half years ago. We had dated for over three years. I'd tried numerous times to make the relationship work, and things just got worse, so I broke it off. Instantly, I knew I'd made the right choice. He maintained that it was a break and he'd get me back. He claimed to be suicidal shortly thereafter. He got pissed when, three months later, I started dating someone else, asking me all kinds of stupid questions about "the new guy". We had to remain roommates from October til April, mind you. When I moved out, I pretty much wrote him off. We spoke a couple of times since, and he was being a cynical asshole, so I stopped e-mailing him back. Hadn't heard a thing from him in over a year. Today, I see him at work. He was with a girl and I didn't think they saw me. No big deal. I was on my break and needed to get something out of my car. The jerkhole must've seen me walking out because he went from one end of the parking lot to the other, where I was parked and circled around my car, watching me and laughing.
Whatever. I'm not intimidated by him and I am over him. I ignored him. What I don't understand is, why did he do this with this other girl present? He is making himself look bad to her, isn't he? He did this before, too, with the first girl he dated after we split, brought her to my job and made her stand there while he flirt-harassed me. Why would a guy do this, anyone know? Also, and I'm not sure if this was his doing or not, but a few months back, one of his old friends came in and started questioning me on our breakup (we broke up in 2002, when will they let it go?). This friend proceeded to tell me I was mean for "going out and dating someone else right away". He asked me if I could relate and I said no. "well, do like the idea of him with another girl," he asks. I don't care, it doesn't bother me, we broke up and obviously I don't think he's gonna sit there, pining away for me forever. I hope he finds someone. Said friend seemed frustrated with me at this point.

Seriously: is it so hard to believe that I really don't care? I wish him no harm but I also don't wanna be his buddy. So when is he gonna leave me alone? Here's my advice, Mr. Ex-Boyfriend--pretend you don't know me. This is why we broke up--you are an immature little boy.

/ranting

My birthday is in less than two weeks. I don't want to be 25--that's a quarter of a century. I will officially be old. Meh. I'm not even too excited about it. Can I just have the ice cream cake and call it a night?

My car is broked again. Some important spring like thing that holds the entire back of the car up is gonna break in half soon. If I am driving when this happens, it's very very bad. So I have my mom's old car now and have been advised to start saving money to buy myself a new car. Any suggestions for reliable, economical cars, keeping in mind that my dad works for GM and is of mucho help in repairing GM/Chevy/etc cars?

Good news: if Dustin and I move to Lansing in the summer, we have a place to stay until we can get on out feet. One of his friends is gonna let us crash with him if we need to for a couple of months. Right now, I just wanna get out of here. I'm through with this town. There seems to be too much history here and not enough going on in the present.