My friend Jess just got her lip pierced and it looks so awesome on her. Makes me want mine done too, but I don't know if I want to deal with the issues it'll cause at work. She got away with it today, but I'm in a supervisory postion most of the time, so I'm pretty sure it wouldn't go over too well. Maybe tragus...
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I was thinking last night about how I used to judge people I barely knew. I'd put them in a category and that was it. If I decided I didn't them or they weren't "good enough", I pretty much avoided them.
I can see now that I was young and insecure. I was trying to make myself feel better by placing myself in some kind...
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I can see now that I was young and insecure. I was trying to make myself feel better by placing myself in some kind...
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thesinner:
I have a 95% success rate of sniffing out rats.
It sucks sometimes cause other people take too long to figure it out. I have to watch my tongue until other people open their eyes.
It sucks sometimes cause other people take too long to figure it out. I have to watch my tongue until other people open their eyes.
maddog_hoek:
I don't really size people up.
I try to honestly give them a fair shake.
I really would like to enjoy the company of more people, but for the most part they annoy or baffle me.
I try to honestly give them a fair shake.
I really would like to enjoy the company of more people, but for the most part they annoy or baffle me.
I just have to survive tonight and I get two days off. Last night was brutal and all I wanna do is sleep for 20 hours. But no, more retail hell.
Need new job. I should be getting more info on the school counselor job tomorrow if all goes as planned. I hope I have a chance since its what I went to school for....
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Need new job. I should be getting more info on the school counselor job tomorrow if all goes as planned. I hope I have a chance since its what I went to school for....
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thesinner:
Should be back to your e-mail.
Houses are good for investment and bad for freedom. Unless of course you can afford paying someone to do the yard work. (which I cannot)
Houses are good for investment and bad for freedom. Unless of course you can afford paying someone to do the yard work. (which I cannot)
Tomorrow, Friday the 13th, is Free Frosty Day at Wendys. Go get one!! Yum!! Chocolate.
Work has been craziness--so many people have left and there aren't enough left to cover everything. Last night was monstrous--everyone after 5:00 had overtime. Apparently, there was no one to call in because everyone has 40 hours. Wish me luck that tonight will be better. I had one 20 minute...
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Work has been craziness--so many people have left and there aren't enough left to cover everything. Last night was monstrous--everyone after 5:00 had overtime. Apparently, there was no one to call in because everyone has 40 hours. Wish me luck that tonight will be better. I had one 20 minute...
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ketaminekitty:
i missed free frosty day?!
djakeeba:
Thanks for the chin-up. I'm being a bit less hard on myself now than when I wrote that, but I also came to another, related realization that I feel even worse about, which you may also have encountered before, if you've encountered the rest...
In a nutshell, most of the criticism I mentioned came toward the end... just as she had finally made some big breakthroughs, and her breakthroughs were panicking me, because they meant -- in my own mind, anyway -- that she woudn't need me anymore... but I needed her.
In a period of six months, my brother hanged himself to death in an abandoned watertower, my adoptive father died, and then came all that mess (I'm sure you've heard) with my grandmother sick, dying, funeral, selling the house, moving across the country, etc.
I was freaked out, completely crazy from the stress, and couldn't do it alone, so like a dumbass I go and start toxically destroying the self-esteem of the woman I love most so she would think she hadn't made any progress, and couldn't be independent (and thus, leave me alone with all that stuff I couldn't cope with). Conversely, I had spent much of the first 2-1/2 years of our relationship trying to build up her self-esteem and make her get to the very point -- healthy self-esteem, confidence, independence -- that started to panic me.
Naturally, that only convinced her that she had to leave the toxicity behind. So, here's the kicker --- by the time the stress was over and I caught up with her in getting better, and was ready to move on to a healthier new life with her, it was too late. I had poisoned everything.
We have done a good deal of talking in the past few days, and we can probably remain friends, but I know that she'll never love me again, and all I can do about that is blame myself.
[Edited on May 13, 2005 11:49PM]
In a nutshell, most of the criticism I mentioned came toward the end... just as she had finally made some big breakthroughs, and her breakthroughs were panicking me, because they meant -- in my own mind, anyway -- that she woudn't need me anymore... but I needed her.
In a period of six months, my brother hanged himself to death in an abandoned watertower, my adoptive father died, and then came all that mess (I'm sure you've heard) with my grandmother sick, dying, funeral, selling the house, moving across the country, etc.
I was freaked out, completely crazy from the stress, and couldn't do it alone, so like a dumbass I go and start toxically destroying the self-esteem of the woman I love most so she would think she hadn't made any progress, and couldn't be independent (and thus, leave me alone with all that stuff I couldn't cope with). Conversely, I had spent much of the first 2-1/2 years of our relationship trying to build up her self-esteem and make her get to the very point -- healthy self-esteem, confidence, independence -- that started to panic me.
Naturally, that only convinced her that she had to leave the toxicity behind. So, here's the kicker --- by the time the stress was over and I caught up with her in getting better, and was ready to move on to a healthier new life with her, it was too late. I had poisoned everything.
We have done a good deal of talking in the past few days, and we can probably remain friends, but I know that she'll never love me again, and all I can do about that is blame myself.
[Edited on May 13, 2005 11:49PM]
So my weekend was fun and exhausting. We shopped, ate, swam, hung out with my family, etc. The graduation itself was outside and it was pretty hot. Dustin and I left shortly after my brother's name was called since we had a two hour drive ahead of us and the traffic was going to be hell after graduation.
My brother gave me a tip on...
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vixen:
Do the pink highlights!!!! Ha ha ha ha ha ha... okay... maybe red will do! Either way... I want to see pix!!! hee hee.
majortomias:
I'm probably going to major in psychology or sociology too. Good luck with the job thing, or in getting your masters.
Your response to my journal made me smile. I did have fun and I hope I have learned things about myself. Its good to know that I just might not be a total fuck up.
Your response to my journal made me smile. I did have fun and I hope I have learned things about myself. Its good to know that I just might not be a total fuck up.
Damn I'm sore. I think I'm getting old--maybe its arthritis kicking in. 
Yesterday I was garden center girl, which mostly meant I rang up people's plants and lawn ornaments. I also got to water most of the stuff and I helped unload the nursery carts that came in. Somewhere in there, I pulled a calf muscle and it is driving me crazy still today. But...
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Yesterday I was garden center girl, which mostly meant I rang up people's plants and lawn ornaments. I also got to water most of the stuff and I helped unload the nursery carts that came in. Somewhere in there, I pulled a calf muscle and it is driving me crazy still today. But... Read More
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commonman:
If you're old then I'm dead. Hey, that would explain a lot.
Free jacuzzi and pool is always a good thing. Have fun!
Free jacuzzi and pool is always a good thing. Have fun!
vixen:
You are totally NOT OLD! Don't make me go over there and kick some ass damnit! Hee hee! 
First off, everyone go congratulate Vixen on going pink today. Way to go girlie!
I am being soooooo lazy today. Oh well, the gym will still be there tomorrow, right? And when I work my new job, it should count as cardio.
My little brother graduates from college this weekend. What supreme being saw it to be a wise decision to grant him a degree...
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I am being soooooo lazy today. Oh well, the gym will still be there tomorrow, right? And when I work my new job, it should count as cardio.
My little brother graduates from college this weekend. What supreme being saw it to be a wise decision to grant him a degree...
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velvetknuckles:
Man, I hope your friend didn't "settle" for just anyone...those kinda relationships are noooooo good..... You got his back though...
Thank ya babe for the vote!
Thank ya babe for the vote!
velvetknuckles:
For you-----
and...
and...
Today is my mom's birthday. Dustin and I went to my parents house and made them dinner (ok, Dustin made them dinner and I watched).
Watching a drunk guy try to prove that he isn't being too loud by screaming out the open door and stomping on the floor is pretty funny............as long as you don't live there. I laughed and left--now I'm wondering if...
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Watching a drunk guy try to prove that he isn't being too loud by screaming out the open door and stomping on the floor is pretty funny............as long as you don't live there. I laughed and left--now I'm wondering if...
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vixen:
Oh man... i totally went pink!
thesinner:
Sounds like a hell of a dinner.
I am bored too........Have a good one.
I am bored too........Have a good one.
Oy, eight hours of work and no lunch. It goes by fast, this being in charge thing but its pretty damn tiring too. I need a pedometer to see how many miles I walk every night, running around, fixing every little thing and unlocking things with my mega set o keys.
And I found out that a girl who I previously didn't think too highly...
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And I found out that a girl who I previously didn't think too highly...
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mistressmissy:
no i know its going to suck. its lane bryant. and i have to do all the things i hate to do...like push people into getting credit cards and blah blah blah. id much rather work at a gas station.
but i had to take it. its money.
but i had to take it. its money.
fieldofdepth:
I would work at Layne Bryant just for the discount.
But anyway, sounds like your having an interesting experience being in charge. The thing I learned about being in charge is: when things are going good take all the credit, when shit hits the fan, blame someone else.
But anyway, sounds like your having an interesting experience being in charge. The thing I learned about being in charge is: when things are going good take all the credit, when shit hits the fan, blame someone else.
I am sitting here, wasting my last day of vacation, waiting for the refrigerator repair guy to show up. 
At least once its fixed, I won't be mopping up water from the floor and will actually be able to buy frozen foods.
If everything goes according to plan, I will have a bigger bed tonight. I can't wait--two people sleeping in a twin is not...
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At least once its fixed, I won't be mopping up water from the floor and will actually be able to buy frozen foods.
If everything goes according to plan, I will have a bigger bed tonight. I can't wait--two people sleeping in a twin is not...
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fieldofdepth:
Welcome to adulthood. 
commonman:
How's the new bed?
Dustin and I went to his dad's for dinner Thursday. Yum yum yum, that man should open his own restaurant. We had cornish game hens grilled with cornbread and suasage stuffing, topped with raspberry sauce and a corn casserole. Plus margaritas and a boatload of wine. I tried sauvignon blanc for the first time and I like it a lot.
We went to IHOP the...
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We went to IHOP the...
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velvetknuckles:
You gotta be sick of the snow by now... 
lowenb:
there was snow this weekend and heavy rain...
i think i need to find a personal chef...
i think i need to find a personal chef...
Today is Dustin's birthday. We went out to lunch and now the boy wants to take a nap. He's gettin old I tells ya. We were supposed to go to the zoo today but it was cold and rainy this morning. I'm kinda bored and eh. I want to do something but what is there to do on a dreary April day?
Tomorrow, we head...
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vixen:
Yay! Happy Birthday to the friend!
Thanks for the congrats!!! You rock!!!
Thanks for the congrats!!! You rock!!!
malloryknoxx:
Happy belated B-Day to Dustin
And yep - I'm back to a platinum-topped head again The red wasn't working out so well, sadly.
Speaking of hair - did you decide on a new highlight color yet?
And yep - I'm back to a platinum-topped head again
The red wasn't working out so well, sadly.
Speaking of hair - did you decide on a new highlight color yet?
As far as piercings go, maybe I spend a lot of time in independently-owned places, where people are more relaxed. I suppose I see very few alternative piercings in corporate America.
I've always wanted one of those trashy, honneymoon suite, red, heart-shaped beds that goes round in circles and vibrates. In actuality I sleep on a piece of shit Ikea, hard as a rock, no box springs bed. Just in case you were wondering.