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I have come to the conclusion that I have no social skills. none.. except with in my own little world.

I have been talking in chat roomsfor a year now, usuall I am told peopel with out social skills do good there... However. I am still talking to myself.

If in real life people feel they must entertain me because of who I am, and in Chat rooms they don't then I must assume that I am honestly not interesting...

damn.

Well they are going to remove my toe on the 14th... Good bye fair middle toe... I guess my Quadripple duece will now have to be doen with my Cyber TOE!

GO Cyber Toe!

My next party is saturday. I have cancelled the laser... and the video artist because the budget is out of control!

all well... It should be still be fun.

Then there is March 6th "RoboGirls" with DJ PolyWog and then I am working on a date for an ultra secret party after that... Doom Doom doom.. please god let me not go bankrupt soon.

I am in my first real relationship since high school... and I love her... and she is away, however I do have the problem of other girls hitting on me, especially new ones in my scene. No big deal.. I am a flirt. And use to it.. Cept the other day I cuddle with another girl fr a bit... and I felt so guilty. this is not uncommon, however I haven't been with my girl in four months and it felt so good to be... well.. touched... I felt guilty because I liked the attention....

It took me two days to finally get up the balls to tell this girl I have a GF....

I have never had to do that before.

Are my flirting cuddle whore days over?

stupid old raver.

Travis