ragdoll96923

bwhahahaha it did save. i wrote this entry earlier but sg went down and i thought it didnt save so i was uber pissed. but i did save it with the right click. yeaya bitches.
proceed...




I've been having some weird dreams

part of my dream last night consisted of me and my (dream) family playing volleyball-tennis to the death. (when our *dream* grandma got off of death row or something)
This game required the use of some sort of big guns (i dont know much about guns) and big knives

Also here is an excerpt of my jounal where I quickly wrote down a little bit of a dream I had:

I walked by the building holding her baby and when I glanced through the doorway I saw two men inside walk by with their pants below their asses. They were each holding either what was a box of cereal or a monkey. I can't remember. I wanted to step inside but I couldn't because I knew I needed to get back to the group since she'd be back any minute.If I took any longer she'd find out that I had strayed so far. So instead I walk by. As I'm walking a beautiful young blonde comes out of the building and starts following me. She's enraged by the fact that I didn't seem intrigued enough to step inside the building to see what all that was about. How dare I deny their request?! How could I not want to throw cereal?! Which she speaks of as if it is a holy action.

I haven't recorded the rest of that dream yet. It goes on a bit both before and after.



blah I have to work doubles for the rest of the week. I really like one of my jobs but the other one I dont like so much. I busted my ass today and only made 21 bucks in tips!!!!!
I don't care for the people I work with and for either!

I've been pretty up and down lately. Thoughts of my son keep popping up out of the blue. Old memories come at bad times and bad memories visit more frequently. I guess it's all a process of breaking out of a bad cycle and reinventing myself as a person. It's also been harder and harder to sleep at night but once I do reach that point I pretty much black out. Cuddling helps though! So does amazingly great sex!!



well that's all for now.....

hope all is well in your worlds