i finished reading my book.
now i'm ready to go travel the world.
too bad i have to wait 15 yrs and 8 months
but one day i will.
right now i'm more looking forward to getting my son
he's getting so big.
he's almost potty trained. no rush.
i feel things should come natural and should not be rushed.
anyway
i love my boy. just thought i'd say that for the millionth time.
i dream about my son and i eventually forming a close friendship after all my years of mothering are no longer necessary (well a moms always a mom but you know what i mean.. that stage when a parent can be a friend as well)
and i dream about traveling with him. Learning about different cultures and spritualities.
I dream about going back to Sicily with him.
Wish I could do that now.
but everything does happen for a reason. Whether it is because of our actions or because of fate. I think it's both.
i'm not gonna get all philosophical and shit up in here..
so lets leave it at that
what are some difficult experiences that you have gone through or are going through?
I'd love to share some stories.
I have loads.
I'm seriously thinking on sitting down and writing about them.. but I just dont have the courage to face the possibilty of failure...
Which is something I've been battling with harder recently (in my favor) I've got to learn how to face my fears.
To learn how to not worry about failure.
Afterall it is my fear or failure that has put me where I am.
I truly don't blame anyone or anything but myself.
I also know that things won't change unless I change them... I just need to know where or how to begin.
Climbing the hill is the hardest part.
I know that if I cant reach the top of the mountain and be able to look out below and see how high I've come (will go) that I'll be able to reach the heavens.
It's just taking that first leap that is so hard and my knees so weak from the journey
but i guess recording my history shouldnt scare me. i mean i dont need to worry about how much i suck at writing. thats what editors and shit are for right. to fix errors and make it sound all interesting right?! lol.
fuck you i like my wine buzz.
i'll take it with a side order of ass.
let me finish this
blah blah blah
ok bye
now i'm ready to go travel the world.
too bad i have to wait 15 yrs and 8 months
but one day i will.
right now i'm more looking forward to getting my son
he's getting so big.
he's almost potty trained. no rush.
i feel things should come natural and should not be rushed.
anyway
i love my boy. just thought i'd say that for the millionth time.
i dream about my son and i eventually forming a close friendship after all my years of mothering are no longer necessary (well a moms always a mom but you know what i mean.. that stage when a parent can be a friend as well)
and i dream about traveling with him. Learning about different cultures and spritualities.
I dream about going back to Sicily with him.
Wish I could do that now.
but everything does happen for a reason. Whether it is because of our actions or because of fate. I think it's both.
i'm not gonna get all philosophical and shit up in here..
so lets leave it at that
what are some difficult experiences that you have gone through or are going through?
I'd love to share some stories.
I have loads.
I'm seriously thinking on sitting down and writing about them.. but I just dont have the courage to face the possibilty of failure...
Which is something I've been battling with harder recently (in my favor) I've got to learn how to face my fears.
To learn how to not worry about failure.
Afterall it is my fear or failure that has put me where I am.
I truly don't blame anyone or anything but myself.
I also know that things won't change unless I change them... I just need to know where or how to begin.
Climbing the hill is the hardest part.
I know that if I cant reach the top of the mountain and be able to look out below and see how high I've come (will go) that I'll be able to reach the heavens.
It's just taking that first leap that is so hard and my knees so weak from the journey
but i guess recording my history shouldnt scare me. i mean i dont need to worry about how much i suck at writing. thats what editors and shit are for right. to fix errors and make it sound all interesting right?! lol.
fuck you i like my wine buzz.
i'll take it with a side order of ass.
let me finish this
blah blah blah
ok bye
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Hope to hear from u soon alright.. since im kinda sorta back on sg. Love ya. :*
yeah all is cool lately on my side, thanks for checkin in
let me know when your goin to travel the world...i'll come