So it's official I guess. This guy needs to take a break. Which I guess is good. So I'll give him his space. but he better realize that I'm spectacular and that he WILL miss me.
lol. no seriously.
this is good.
no rushing things and I get time to clear my head and get my shit straight. It just wouldn't have been so bad if I didnt go try to find a job right fucking there.
ass. should have said something earlier before it got to this point. Before I put my feelings out there.and..it takes two ya know.
whatever. too much bullshit drama for me. This is why I don't date anymore. I'm pretty sure this is going to be it for me anyway. I'm to the point were I cant handle men and all their bullshit. seems theyre only good for sex anymore and im not so sure about that one either.
.....Maybe he had a reason for suspecting I may be a lesbian.
god now I have to go out and try to find a job AGAIN. but somewhere were I can walk to from here.
God. If I didn't have court in the morning I'd seriously just pack my shit up and hit the road again. I'd probably get the fuck out of Georgia. This place is a hellhole and not the interesting kind.
I got bored and dyed my hair. I bleached it but it didnt bleach all the way so it's stil sort of orangey. looks closer to my real hair color so its alright i guess. I was going to chop it all off or something but I remembered I have court. So they'll have to deal with the multicolor hair. I hope they give me a continuance since I have no lawyer still.
I'm an extreme slacker. to the point where I watch my life disinegrate. I lose everyone I love because I'm a procrastinating, lazy, uncaring, stupid fuckwad. I just cant seem to stop even though I sometimes want to.
I can't stop being lazy, rude, inconsiderate and unmotivated. I think I'm not getting the right nutrients.
I really need to get a friend. I literally don't have any friends. I havent had one single friend in well... lets just say its been a couple years. and its been 6 months or so since I had a friendly acquaitance. oh wait i forgot about my friend sally. ah fuck that. i never get around to calling her after that whole stripclub/drugs/hooker/client fiasco. its a long story which does not involve me as the hooker or client.(just to clarify)
besides I just dont want to have sex with her and her husband. as tempting as that is
Sorry babe but ya had four kids. I had one and I feel icky when I look at myself nekkid....
it's a good thing noone really reads my journals.
fuck. who am i kidding? i'd be writing some pretty nasty desperate shit in here if people did. (.....)
lol. no seriously.
this is good.
no rushing things and I get time to clear my head and get my shit straight. It just wouldn't have been so bad if I didnt go try to find a job right fucking there.
ass. should have said something earlier before it got to this point. Before I put my feelings out there.and..it takes two ya know.
whatever. too much bullshit drama for me. This is why I don't date anymore. I'm pretty sure this is going to be it for me anyway. I'm to the point were I cant handle men and all their bullshit. seems theyre only good for sex anymore and im not so sure about that one either.
.....Maybe he had a reason for suspecting I may be a lesbian.
god now I have to go out and try to find a job AGAIN. but somewhere were I can walk to from here.
God. If I didn't have court in the morning I'd seriously just pack my shit up and hit the road again. I'd probably get the fuck out of Georgia. This place is a hellhole and not the interesting kind.
I got bored and dyed my hair. I bleached it but it didnt bleach all the way so it's stil sort of orangey. looks closer to my real hair color so its alright i guess. I was going to chop it all off or something but I remembered I have court. So they'll have to deal with the multicolor hair. I hope they give me a continuance since I have no lawyer still.
I'm an extreme slacker. to the point where I watch my life disinegrate. I lose everyone I love because I'm a procrastinating, lazy, uncaring, stupid fuckwad. I just cant seem to stop even though I sometimes want to.
I can't stop being lazy, rude, inconsiderate and unmotivated. I think I'm not getting the right nutrients.
I really need to get a friend. I literally don't have any friends. I havent had one single friend in well... lets just say its been a couple years. and its been 6 months or so since I had a friendly acquaitance. oh wait i forgot about my friend sally. ah fuck that. i never get around to calling her after that whole stripclub/drugs/hooker/client fiasco. its a long story which does not involve me as the hooker or client.(just to clarify)
besides I just dont want to have sex with her and her husband. as tempting as that is
Sorry babe but ya had four kids. I had one and I feel icky when I look at myself nekkid....
it's a good thing noone really reads my journals.
fuck. who am i kidding? i'd be writing some pretty nasty desperate shit in here if people did. (.....)
This to be filed under most humbling moment.
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looks like i'll be writing even more pretty nasty desperate shit in here. stay tuned... it'll be good now that I have an audience. sorta like masterbation.....