still nothing new on the back front. i have to wait almost another month to see a surgeon to decide if i can even have back surgery and what my options may be.
i went out and got a new note book the other day and it has yet to be touched. cant force it i guess.
i also got the book twilight by stephanie meyers. everyones been telling me how much of a good read it is so since i ahve all this extra time i should probably read.
i may have to go back to glens falls if i ahve back surgery. he may be taking a new job down here that hes been waiting 3 years for that has just so happen to have a posibility of opening up now. so that mean hell be working 8-10 hour days tues through sat which mean zero time to take care of me when i have surgery. ya..my financee may take a job over taking care of me. i know. he says its for our future bla blah bla but you knwo how crappy that makes me feel knowing that taking care of me is not #1 prioriety. he has an almost $20 an hour job with insurance he can have if he decides to go back to glensfalls with me but he dosent think he'll be happy. in other words i dont thin he going to gove it a chance becasue hes been waiting for this job to open up for so long. before i wasnt even going to have the option of us staying together if he took the job because there are a million reason why i should be with him right now and as usual i lowered my standards and gave me going home to recover from surgery and option if he took the week off that i had surgery and saw me evry single weekend no exceptions. or he can move to glens falls with me and start compleetly over.
im almost 100% sure hes going to take the job here. so what does that really say about him? maybe im just being selfish but i just feel like its his responsibility to take care of me. and he wont be able to pawn me off back to my family ecery time something happens with my back. it just so happens that my dad has retired (early from having a stroke) my sister is in college and still home and my dads finacee lives with them and my aunt is a nurse and everyone misses me an awful lot so it wont be a problem really me going home...its jsut that i cant trust him. ughhhh.
anyways, i wish that i could go out in public for extended amounts of time cause i could kill someone to go see the dark knight right now.
i miss my babies from home.
i went out and got a new note book the other day and it has yet to be touched. cant force it i guess.
i also got the book twilight by stephanie meyers. everyones been telling me how much of a good read it is so since i ahve all this extra time i should probably read.
i may have to go back to glens falls if i ahve back surgery. he may be taking a new job down here that hes been waiting 3 years for that has just so happen to have a posibility of opening up now. so that mean hell be working 8-10 hour days tues through sat which mean zero time to take care of me when i have surgery. ya..my financee may take a job over taking care of me. i know. he says its for our future bla blah bla but you knwo how crappy that makes me feel knowing that taking care of me is not #1 prioriety. he has an almost $20 an hour job with insurance he can have if he decides to go back to glensfalls with me but he dosent think he'll be happy. in other words i dont thin he going to gove it a chance becasue hes been waiting for this job to open up for so long. before i wasnt even going to have the option of us staying together if he took the job because there are a million reason why i should be with him right now and as usual i lowered my standards and gave me going home to recover from surgery and option if he took the week off that i had surgery and saw me evry single weekend no exceptions. or he can move to glens falls with me and start compleetly over.
im almost 100% sure hes going to take the job here. so what does that really say about him? maybe im just being selfish but i just feel like its his responsibility to take care of me. and he wont be able to pawn me off back to my family ecery time something happens with my back. it just so happens that my dad has retired (early from having a stroke) my sister is in college and still home and my dads finacee lives with them and my aunt is a nurse and everyone misses me an awful lot so it wont be a problem really me going home...its jsut that i cant trust him. ughhhh.
anyways, i wish that i could go out in public for extended amounts of time cause i could kill someone to go see the dark knight right now.
i miss my babies from home.
Not good about the back sugery. My GF's brother just had some done. Can be a scary thought. What do you need to have done on it?
Speaking of the GF, she runs twilight australia.net. I think that somes up her feelings on the book series :p