raellem

Ive come to the conclusion i've been nothing but a little bitch as of late. Whine whine whine. I think im going to keep doing it though, however. I just feel like i need to vent and at least when i do it here im not focusing it on anyone and making them feel bad.

I guess after tonight i realize just how much i miss the person i was seeing. Having to work with her made me remember all the things that came with her being around all the time.

Sharing my time with her.

Sharing my bed with her.

Sharing myself with her.

Sharing all the fun shit we did together.

Now, its just me again. Ive done it before, and i can do it again, but that doesn't mean i have to be flippant about it. I just get so much more frustrated when i actually give a shit.

I need to quit this shit.... its so unappealing.

Better to have loved and lost... right?

J