raellem

'hold still
all of my life
all of my time
I don't wanna come back around tonight
and all that I need
is serenity
I don't wanna feel your new disease
the natural life
you're born, you die
the natural life
you're wrong, you're right
the natural life
you're born, you die
the natural life's a lie
all of my lies
swallow your pride
I don't wanna come back around tonight
and all that I need
is serenity
I don't wanna feel your new disease
the natural life
you're born, you die
the natural life
you're wrong, you're right
the natural life
you're born, you die
the natural life's a lie
all of my lies
swallow your pride
right
you're right
I can never lie
let me go
try to find a home
I can't wait
try to stay awake
dead inside
bothered by the lie
you're right
the natural life
you're born, you die
the natural life
you're wrong, you're right
the natural life
you're born, you die
the natural life's a lie
all of my lies
swallow your pride
a lie'

-Breaking Benjamin "Natural Life"

Happy Bday to me and everyone else who has one on this day.

How Cheesy eh? I was just listening to that song on the way home and it stuck... what can i say?

The more that i live, the more im coming to realize that i can't control a God damn thing. I really think that my feelings aren't all that important and that it really is a good thing to keep them in check no matter what. Of course, im probably just a head case, but that is a completely different discussion. I wonder if there is a real reason that im rambling about all this. I think it may just be for the best if i just quit giving a shit. I can't control what others do and feel, so what the hell is the point in worrying, right?

I don't think all the booze i drank on the clock really helped tonight either. More shots than i really needed to have. Only live once though right?

Have a good day everyone. Who knows why life is this way..... I'm sure running out of ideas as to why....


J