radioactivehead

"And then depression sets in..."

If you had a choice of dying a slow and painful death at the hands of your best friend or a quick and easy death at the hands of your worst enemy, which one would you choose??
I have had both occur to me today so my decision has been made for me.

I just got done with what is going to be my first of many 12 hour work days. Not fun, the pay does not equal the amout on energy i must exhaust. It also appears that i am being rejected by some close friends. How do i know this, mainly the "Trying to ditch me in advance" I txt my friends seeing if they wanted to go to the diner, when they reply that they are already there. I then stated i would be there in 10 min, to which they replied "nope, we are leaving in 5 min" Just stupid shit along those lines. Multiplied by many times over the course of the last week.

And not only that, but the current female that i am persuing is included in this group of friends. I dont know what i did to piss her off, but whatever i did, i did it incredibly well. I dont know what i did to you kelsey, but im sorry.

What is my problem with the opposite sex. I can never seem to keep a steady girlfriend. Maybe there is an odor that i am currently unaware of. Maybe my personality is to extreme. I am a very loud and outspoken person, but 95% of the time it is out of humor. Maybe im just flat out not as attractive as i have thought. I simply dont know anymore. Its been so long since i have been with someone for a time longer then a month. ugghhh....

im done with my rant for now....

cheers ,
~matt~