i stood above the abyss and looked in. and lo-the abyss looked back.....
so, yeah, sorry that ive been gone for a while. i feel like shit about it. im sorry. things have been fairly crazy in my life and ive spent the past few weeks fairly self absorbed (and/or under some sort of self induced numbness)..
so, lets see, where to start.. as you can tell, i changed my hair (and profile picture)!
i was influenced by all those kids who always say "skin to win!!" so i busted out the 'ole razor... it is kinda weird, to see what i will look like when i get older (and to see just where my hair is leaving me as of now! 
) anywhoo, new look for me.
ive been up to my ass trying to get ready for our station festival, "X-FEST" which happens on the 19th. 10 bands, 2 stages, all day long, many drunk people (eventually i will be included in that), lots of band interviews for me, and stage announcements, and schmoozing... one of the ironies of my life is that there are times when i really dont like interacting with people and get very uncomfortable with it.. yet i am paid to do just that. the 19th will be one of those days that will walk the line between fun, odd, and uncomfortable (last year i had a woman say that she was going to leave her fiancee because she loved me and would masturbate to my voice every morning... 
) but, it usually winds up being a really fun day. corrie is coming out for it which will be both really wonderful and a bit stressful. she has never seen me when i am in my work mode. the whole "radio persona" has never been a part of our relationship, and she will be thrust into it on the one day where it will be forced to be cranked to 11.. i hope that she understands and takes it all with a smile and a grain of salt.
speaking of the lady, things are going alright. she has been in and out of good moods lately as she laments her impending forced move and the fact that she still has not found a place and does not have much $$$. it is tough and i hate that there is nothing that i can really do for her right now. that and she keeps saying "please come over" knowing that it is not possible. now, i totally love and appreciate the sentiment, but the fact that i have not money to get out there no matter HOW much i want to, and that i am flying her out here in a few days kinda sucks... maybe i am just taking it a bit harshly, but still, i miss her a ton, but i guess that i just understand the situation a bit better and have come to terms with it. i dunno.....
work is shitty. i cant wait to move out of here, to stop working mornings, to get some kind of a life back... i think that in october i am going to go in to talk to my boss and tell him that i am done, and as his help to get me out of here and back East... should be interesting to see what he does and how he takes it. but at this point he knows that i am here on borrowed time anyways.. so hopefully by the end of the year i will be doing afternoons somewhere...
what else?? going to get more ink tomorrow 
!!!!!! going to work on the DNA strand that is on the back of my armpit area, so it should hurt like FUCK!!!! good times! ive been riding the motorcycle a lot. i love being on it! as much as i love driving in my car, the bike is better for thinking. the mind gets to play a bit more when im on the bike. good times. too bad that i have to give it away in 2 weeks 
if youve gotten this far, thanks!! im babbling at this point. i am sorry that i have been bad at keeping up. i hope that all of you are doing well. i miss "talking" to you! let me know what is up, ok? i promise not to drop off the face of the earth again
one random thought... i have been listening to this album for the past few days, and i am of the belief that De La Soul's "3 Feet High And Rising" is the best hip hop album ever! I remember buying it on vinyl when it first came out when i was 11... just a conversation starter for ya..........
piece!
****one last thing!!!! this is the part wherein i whore myslef out! drop me a testamonial so that i feel cool at the end of the day and my insecurities are lessened just a tit bit! thanks!******
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Mini-Update 9/9
was sick as a dog the other night. puking blood for some reason. not good times. so, to make myself feel better i went and got some more ink yesterday.. worked on the koi under my arm and in my armpit and the DNA strand under there as well (OUCH!!!). also, had a pink breast cancer ribbon (for my mom) done over my heart. lots o good pain for me!!!
on a side note, thanks to all of you for welcoming me back from the abyss.. you are all awesome!
so, yeah, sorry that ive been gone for a while. i feel like shit about it. im sorry. things have been fairly crazy in my life and ive spent the past few weeks fairly self absorbed (and/or under some sort of self induced numbness)..
so, lets see, where to start.. as you can tell, i changed my hair (and profile picture)!
i was influenced by all those kids who always say "skin to win!!" so i busted out the 'ole razor... it is kinda weird, to see what i will look like when i get older (and to see just where my hair is leaving me as of now! ) anywhoo, new look for me.
ive been up to my ass trying to get ready for our station festival, "X-FEST" which happens on the 19th. 10 bands, 2 stages, all day long, many drunk people (eventually i will be included in that), lots of band interviews for me, and stage announcements, and schmoozing... one of the ironies of my life is that there are times when i really dont like interacting with people and get very uncomfortable with it.. yet i am paid to do just that. the 19th will be one of those days that will walk the line between fun, odd, and uncomfortable (last year i had a woman say that she was going to leave her fiancee because she loved me and would masturbate to my voice every morning...
) but, it usually winds up being a really fun day. corrie is coming out for it which will be both really wonderful and a bit stressful. she has never seen me when i am in my work mode. the whole "radio persona" has never been a part of our relationship, and she will be thrust into it on the one day where it will be forced to be cranked to 11.. i hope that she understands and takes it all with a smile and a grain of salt.
speaking of the lady, things are going alright. she has been in and out of good moods lately as she laments her impending forced move and the fact that she still has not found a place and does not have much $$$. it is tough and i hate that there is nothing that i can really do for her right now. that and she keeps saying "please come over" knowing that it is not possible. now, i totally love and appreciate the sentiment, but the fact that i have not money to get out there no matter HOW much i want to, and that i am flying her out here in a few days kinda sucks... maybe i am just taking it a bit harshly, but still, i miss her a ton, but i guess that i just understand the situation a bit better and have come to terms with it. i dunno.....
work is shitty. i cant wait to move out of here, to stop working mornings, to get some kind of a life back... i think that in october i am going to go in to talk to my boss and tell him that i am done, and as his help to get me out of here and back East... should be interesting to see what he does and how he takes it. but at this point he knows that i am here on borrowed time anyways.. so hopefully by the end of the year i will be doing afternoons somewhere...
what else?? going to get more ink tomorrow
!!!!!! going to work on the DNA strand that is on the back of my armpit area, so it should hurt like FUCK!!!! good times! ive been riding the motorcycle a lot. i love being on it! as much as i love driving in my car, the bike is better for thinking. the mind gets to play a bit more when im on the bike. good times. too bad that i have to give it away in 2 weeks
if youve gotten this far, thanks!! im babbling at this point. i am sorry that i have been bad at keeping up. i hope that all of you are doing well. i miss "talking" to you! let me know what is up, ok? i promise not to drop off the face of the earth again
one random thought... i have been listening to this album for the past few days, and i am of the belief that De La Soul's "3 Feet High And Rising" is the best hip hop album ever! I remember buying it on vinyl when it first came out when i was 11... just a conversation starter for ya..........
piece!
****one last thing!!!! this is the part wherein i whore myslef out! drop me a testamonial so that i feel cool at the end of the day and my insecurities are lessened just a tit bit! thanks!******
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
Mini-Update 9/9
was sick as a dog the other night. puking blood for some reason. not good times. so, to make myself feel better i went and got some more ink yesterday.. worked on the koi under my arm and in my armpit and the DNA strand under there as well (OUCH!!!). also, had a pink breast cancer ribbon (for my mom) done over my heart. lots o good pain for me!!!
on a side note, thanks to all of you for welcoming me back from the abyss.. you are all awesome!
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glad to see you have emerged from the abyss. hope you showered though, they tend to smell, those abysses.
speaking of ink! i wanted to ask you, who do you get your ink from at blue byrd? does dave do all your stuff or some one else or any recommendations or ? i think, i hope, i have the money to get my next tattoo done soon, so i thought i'd ask for your almighty wisdom.
and the blood puking, that's just not good. not good at all.
a friend of mine's getting me one of the movie posters, not as good as a free CD, but it'll do
and thanks for the 411 on blue byrd. hopefully i'll be able to go sooner than later. i'm hopping in my seat i'm so excited.