Sunday Jun 22, 2003

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::sigh:: new journal time...

there's this thing about me that's been bugging me all year. i only have male friends. i mean, i have some female acquaintances, but nobody i'm close to or that i really feel cares about me very much. i think i've been a "man's woman" for so long now, that i just don't know HOW to make solid friendships with women that aren't all based on me teaching them something, or giving them advice 'cuz i have a BA in psych, and they somehow think that means i can fix their problems. my male friends love me for who i am, they see my foibles, and they are dear to my heart... but ever since i got married, they just won't let me discuss certain subjects. and i find myself lonely for the company of women. not in a sexual manner, bi tho i am, but just for the purposes of discussing the meaningful parts of life and getting a perspective i'm not used to.

i'm really laying my heart open here... kind of risky, i guess. but i don't know anywhere else that it's going to be seen.

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edited to say i have pics up from my cigar party this weekend. more later, when i get permission.
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reprobate:
Hi back. life is good, i'm gainfully employed again which is always nice. I need to adjust my schedule to reflect that fact though. To much playing, not enough getting boring non-work stuff done. And you?
musicshapedhole:
Given time, I'm sure some females will drift into your life. Is there some sort of intimidation factor that you think might go into not being able to have a solid friendship with a gal? I always seem to think of myself as on a lower level when presented with somebody who has a.)completed college or b.)knows more bigger words than I do... does that make sense? I'm babbling. I'm not even sure what I'm trying to get at.......

.....but I like those cigar pictures. smile I have a picture of a friend lighting his cigar with a dollar bill. Mmmm good times.

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