::sigh:: new journal time...

there's this thing about me that's been bugging me all year. i only have male friends. i mean, i have some female acquaintances, but nobody i'm close to or that i really feel cares about me very much. i think i've been a "man's woman" for so long now, that i just don't know HOW to make solid friendships with women that aren't all based on me teaching them something, or giving them advice 'cuz i have a BA in psych, and they somehow think that means i can fix their problems. my male friends love me for who i am, they see my foibles, and they are dear to my heart... but ever since i got married, they just won't let me discuss certain subjects. and i find myself lonely for the company of women. not in a sexual manner, bi tho i am, but just for the purposes of discussing the meaningful parts of life and getting a perspective i'm not used to.

i'm really laying my heart open here... kind of risky, i guess. but i don't know anywhere else that it's going to be seen.

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edited to say i have pics up from my cigar party this weekend. more later, when i get permission.