there is a VAST song playing in my head... one that reminds me of my darling husband and how he's not here. ::sighs:: oh, well. i have too much to do today, and i just don't want to go out. but these things have to get done, and there's not a lick of food in the house. so i get to go out, later. maybe i can borrow dad's time for some of it.

my mom is doing better. she found a job and a place to live and the idea is that she will be able to afford to take her car back from us in august, which means... ROAD TRIP! ChiRex and i just recently talking about how we've never had a chance to take a vacation together. so the plan is that we're gonna drive the car up to idaho after we move to colorado with it. we'll make a pit stop in utah and visit some old friends from college, and in idaho we'll swing up to my old town and look up everybody i went to highschool with. shouldbe very fun. and a mini reunion for me, as well. then we leave mom with the car, and fly home to colorado, to unpack and finish moving in. and Chi can go to school. then iin a little while we can buy a car for ourselves.

my dad is alright... not the most dependable guyin the world, but infinitely available to me. and he deserved a better father's day. he put us to work inthe yard, and then we wormed out of it. it makes me feel bad, but i truly hate dad's ideas for home improvement.

i have a new job, a temp position as an administrative assistant with a major financial institution's local branch mortgage lender. i was originally hired on for 2 days a week at 12$ / hr. but they like my work very much, so my hours have been doubled. i like that, because it's good money, and a fair change from what i was doing before, and there's no hard feelings at the end of the summer, because it's temporary and it has to end when the person i'm covering gets back. so it all works out in my favor.

this is turning out to be a loooong journal entry, but as i'm now working and really only have access on mondays, i'm going to be posting my entire week in one day, with occasional comments elsewhere throughout the week.

one last thing, and this a very long story. i used to be the kindof girl who prided herself on a particular skill in bed. i had bragging rights due to an incredibly long and flexible tongue which allowed me to give incredible head. i once made a guy hyperventilate during a simple BJ. that's how good i was. then i met the man who would become my husband, and began to have issues. see, he has some misterious scarring on the underside of his penis which reduces his sensitivity, giving him great stamina during sex, but mostly ruining fellatio. so after much determined trying, i eventually gave up on the idea that i would ever give him a satisfying blow, much less a spectacular one. recently, all that has changed. this weekend i was able to go down on him with sucess twice! and i've never felt better or more accomplished in the bedroom for anything else. so yeah, i'm back, baby! life is still good.