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Late last night, thoughts of her hit me hard and before I knew it, I felt a burning in my eyes followed by a small stream of tears. It may seem ridiculous, seeing as we barely hung out (yet kept constant contact), but what time we had was one of the most raw, direct and illuminating connections I've made with anyone. Evangeline simply LIVED, to the very end. It may not have seemed like a big deal to her, but it was a quality of hers I admired and wish I had in greater quantity.

I know it's there, she brought it out of me for a brief instance. Still...

In less than a month, I'll be leaving my twenties behind and thrown head first into the age of responsibility, maturity and humility. Problem: I'VE ALREADY BEEN LIVING LIKE A 30-SOMETHING SINCE I HIT PUBERTY. Hell, mentally I'm much older as some of you can attest. Looking back, it's been an interesting ride but in my honest opinion, nothing to write home about. Not that I feel there's a finish line I must cross and give up absolutely on any chance of committing some 'youthful indiscretions'. The problem is two-fold: a) I don't know how to let loose; b) No one wants me to, because I'm 'the reliable one'. Somehow, some way, I need to cast aside that long-standing role and finally have fun like a majority of my friends have been all their lives... as inconsiderate assholes. LOL jk kinda

Essentially...


I have to put everyone's interests far, far off to the side (preferably off the table entirely) and nurture my own. Work wise, it's going well. My main camera was giving me problems earlier in the week yet I took the time to find out what other purchases I'll have to make in the future to expand my business. It won't be easy at the start but once I get the ball up one side of the hill, my hope is it'll crack and crash into an avalanche on the other side.

Fingers crossed.

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Now when it comes to personal matters, i.e. dating and relationships? Nigga pleeeeease. That's a lost cause if I ever knew one. I wouldn't claim to be two breakdowns and a six-pack away from being Travis Bickle, however being my kind of weird doesn't suit many a lady. Oh sure, I'm likable and entertaining to be around. Affable and mildly attractive enough to joke about being one's baby daddy every so often. Yet hand holding and park dates with me, let alone rolling over to see MY face every morning? Gah. ROSS.



Maybe I'm being too hard on myself.
Maybe living a solitary lifestyle for as long as I have has crippled my confidence with the opposite sex.
Maybe, jusssst maaaaybe, the women I attract don't know how good they could have it.
...for this moment in my life, we won't learn whether I'm wrong or not.

Speaking of laydeez, congrats to Bruise and Kurosune turning pink!
Also, can someone buy Leandra, Paprika, Yulia and Aymi's sets before I do?
Lastly, someone make Brittan and Tez get naked before I fly to their respective towns myself and shoot them (with a camera, naturally).

While I'm temporarily in a demanding mood...
MAKE ME A MULTI & !!!

Rexy demands it.



GO FORTH AND MULTIPLY.