Arrrrgghhhhh!!! It's 6AM and I can't sleep!! I'm really pissed off at a certain friend who blew me off yesterday,
I hope the cat I was supposed to adopt is ok, and I hope I can get downtown soon to pick her up.. I'm so horrible at being where I'm supposed to be, when I'm supposed to be there..
Hmmm.. I really have no idea what else to say.. I'm tired, but I can't sleep. I've got way too much on my mind, including what to do about my 19 year old brother who has decided to follow in my footsteps and become a drunk/drug addict.. I can only hope he gets lucky like I did and stops before it's way too late.
Ok, so here's my rant.. This fucking kid is driving me insane!! He quit a $300 a week job with benefits to go play his drum all day to make enough money to smoke crack and drink at night! He's sleeping underneath the subway station at 15th and Market after I told him he should stay here for a while! He said I live too far out of the city and I'm too boring for him.. I might be boring, but I'm the only one who's willing to help him at this point. I need to do something, but I'm not sure what. Untill I figure it out, everything else is pretty much secondary, this includes work. I made some calls today about getting a group of my sober friends to go with me to talk to him tomorrow afternoon, but I doubt that any good will come of it.
This is really hard for me.. I've lost a lot of people I care about to booze and drugs, and damn near died myself. I know what I would do if it were just another drunk/addict I was trying to help, but with family... it's a lot different.. It makes you want to go down there, smack some sense into him and drag him off to a rehab. The problem with that is I know very well that I can't stop him unless he really wants help.
Anyway.. I won't be around much this weekend because I'm going to try to track him down and talk some sense into him. I may be wasting my breath, but I have to try. I moved away from Chicago and wasn't around to help my sister.. I won't make that mistake with him. He's here, I'm here, I'm not gonna give up on him. I'm tired of seeing people I care about die from this shit.
I hope the cat I was supposed to adopt is ok, and I hope I can get downtown soon to pick her up.. I'm so horrible at being where I'm supposed to be, when I'm supposed to be there..
Hmmm.. I really have no idea what else to say.. I'm tired, but I can't sleep. I've got way too much on my mind, including what to do about my 19 year old brother who has decided to follow in my footsteps and become a drunk/drug addict.. I can only hope he gets lucky like I did and stops before it's way too late.
Ok, so here's my rant.. This fucking kid is driving me insane!! He quit a $300 a week job with benefits to go play his drum all day to make enough money to smoke crack and drink at night! He's sleeping underneath the subway station at 15th and Market after I told him he should stay here for a while! He said I live too far out of the city and I'm too boring for him.. I might be boring, but I'm the only one who's willing to help him at this point. I need to do something, but I'm not sure what. Untill I figure it out, everything else is pretty much secondary, this includes work. I made some calls today about getting a group of my sober friends to go with me to talk to him tomorrow afternoon, but I doubt that any good will come of it.
This is really hard for me.. I've lost a lot of people I care about to booze and drugs, and damn near died myself. I know what I would do if it were just another drunk/addict I was trying to help, but with family... it's a lot different.. It makes you want to go down there, smack some sense into him and drag him off to a rehab. The problem with that is I know very well that I can't stop him unless he really wants help.
Anyway.. I won't be around much this weekend because I'm going to try to track him down and talk some sense into him. I may be wasting my breath, but I have to try. I moved away from Chicago and wasn't around to help my sister.. I won't make that mistake with him. He's here, I'm here, I'm not gonna give up on him. I'm tired of seeing people I care about die from this shit.
went through the same thing with mine and
he died, so best of luck. BTW, glad to see
someone else likes the 'Everything You Know
is Wrong' books..they have some interesting
stuff in there.