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I stayed up way too late last night.. I was on the phone with a friend untill at least 4 this morning. She was trying to set me up with a friend of hers who also just got out of a long relationship. My first thought was BAD IDEA! Sure, let's take two people who just got out of long term relationships, who are still feeling like shit about it and get them together! Sounds like a disaster waiting to happen! I love Dana, but what the fuck was she thinking?!?! I've told her before that I planned on taking some time off from all that.. I've allways had this terrible habbit of going from one relationship to another with hardly any time in between. I'm trying to break that pattern, it's done nothing but get me in trouble. There is nothing to be ashamed of when you make a mistake, but if you keep making the same one over and over... that's just stupid! I promised myself that I would not make that mistake again. Besides, I need time to straighten myself out before I go inflicting myself on anyone else. Why am I writing this in my SG journal.. Oh yea.. so I can come back and look at it to remind myself of what I'm trying to do!

I've decided to take today off since I've already wasted most of the day by sleeping till almost noon. I think I'll do some work around here, like rewiring my home theater and throwing out all the shit that's been piled up in my living room for the last 4 months. I should also have a yard sale and get rid of some of this computer equipment that I'll never use.. Of course that would involve sorting it all out, which is not an easy task when the garage and 2 closets are full of it. I need to get rid of this stuff though.. I don't want to build computers for clients anymore because there is no money in it. Maybe I'll even make enough money from selling all that crap to put a down payment on the car I want! Living out here without a car for the last 3 months has really been a pain in the ass! My motorcycle is totally fucked, so I've had to rely on septa, which is by no means fun.. I don't know why they bother to write a schedule when they never stick to it! I guess I could fix the bike, but it's not really worth it.. I have a friend who wants to buy it off me anyway. Well, I'm not getting anything done sitting here.. so I think it's time to get going.

UPDATE: 12:20AM

Well, so much for grocery shopping, the fucking place was closed! Oh well.. Instead I think I'll go make loud noise on the guitar for a while. I've been playing a lot lately, which is a good thing.. I was really slacking on it for a while. I think my neighbor is getting tired of hearing me play the same thing all the time though.. I'm working on a song I've been writing for about 4 months now and being a totall perfectionist isn't helping me.. It's not like I ever plan on recording it, it's just something I enjoy doing. The lyrics are done, but I'm still working out the guitar. Maybe one day I'll finish it.

I have a feeling I'll be up all night again.. The whole sleep thing just isn't working out lately..